Survived until I died
Wings so I can fly
Standing at the pearly gate
Yelling, “let me in, I tried!”

Life was all consuming
Difficult to breathe
I had all that I wanted
I have all that I need

I didn’t go without
I wasn’t at all deprived
I had all of my loved ones
Always by my side

I never reached my peek
I didn’t have much drive
In a constant state of mind
Wondering, “why am I alive?”

I never found my calling
No reason I could find
A constant disappointment
Without a manual or guide

I was lost in my surroundings
When I spoke, I lied
Standing at the pearly gate
Yelling, “let me in, I tried!”

Angels with a checklist
The story of my life
Let’s skip all of the inquiries
Please let me inside

A standard to live up to
Life and death they coincide
Rules meant to be broken
It’s for you to decide

Mistakes are never overlooked
Please keep an open mind
If you let me through the gate
I promise to abide

At last the gate has opened
I take it all in stride
I’m right here where I belong
Even God knows that I tried

What am I supposed to do here
In this world that I reside
I want to do things my own way
But I keep getting denied

A lifelong search for where I belong
I know God knows I've tried
As curious as I have been
I take it all in stride

I have to find that one thing
That's keeping me alive
Something to go after
The reason which I strive

Be it women, money, or power
I need a tourist's guide
To show me which direction
Or who I need to bribe

To far off lands I'll travel
Along the countryside
To gather information
Or just enjoy the ride

Whether or not I find the answer
Or where solutions coincide
Then I'll decipher every clue
If only for my pride

Of  course, of course  we'd take the world by force
What did you expect, it's not your fault you were coerced
Laser beams and rockets
Missiles up their sleeves
A ******* war that all concerns
What are we trying to achieve
Something has to be done
This has gotten out of hand
Impeach, impeach, impeach!
Please impeach this "man".

The invisible man
The invisible man
He often goes unnoticed
The best disguise in the land

He can not get a sunburn
He can not get a tan
He's rarely ever thought of
Often has no dinner plans

He can be very elusive
His skills are heavy in demand
His credentials are impressive
Even worked for Uncle Sam

No one knows his story
Or how and when it all began
His laughter is contagious
Bottled lightning in a can

No one knows his true identity
It's been claimed to be a scam
The truth is very clear to see
Now I've told you all I can

His location is a secret
His whereabouts unknown
He enjoys the company of others
But mostly prefers his own

Despite his see through nature
He's complex and deep in thought
Always worrying about this and that
But mostly worried he'll be caught

His existence fascinating
To a multitude of men
To harness all his power
They'd do anything they can

So he must be cautious
Quiet and discrete
His characters in question
But the evidence is week

They once cornered him in an alley
A trap that someone planned
But I know he made it out ok
Because I am none other than....

The invisible man.

Words are just words
Until action takes place
Smiles last a while,
Don't let them go to waste
Good intentions are worthless
Some good deeds go unsung
You are the person you are
Until you are who you become
Change can be scary
Whether welcomed or not
What we learn about ourselves
Mustn't be forgot
What we put out into the universe
Is what we get back
Nothing comes from nothing
We must improve on what's lacked
Bend, do not break
Give, do not take
Be kind to each other
Be real, and not fake
It's never too late
To start a life you deem fit
It just takes a little know how
Elbow grease, and grit
Put your nose to the grind stone
Never ever give up
Give it all that you've got
Until you've had enough
Each day starts anew
You have from morning till night
To do what is required
To do what is right

Although I watched it flying,
I could see it had no wings.
From a gust of wind it started rising,
And a handheld ball of string.
As my father began to run,
It kept rising ever higher.
I remember thinking to myself,
This was something to admire.
My father handed it to me,
Told me to hold on tight and run.
And as I ran across the field,
I remember smiling and having fun.
But all at once the wind died down,
And the sun crept through the trees.
My flying friend came swooping down,
Like it had been stricken with disease.
I heard my father yell out to me,
To pull tightly on the cord.
But curiosity overwhelmed me,
And my father's orders went ignored.
On that day I watched it crash,
From whence it flew so high.
Although I felt discouraged,
Dad just smiled and said "good try".
Even though it was not me up there,
I still feel I touched the sky.
And it gave me confidence to think,
That I, too, one day could fly.

I write but do not speak
My voice is really weak
I’m shy and not self- confident
My love life’s looking bleak

My writing is my therapy
Because therapy’s not cheap
When writing I am focused
Who else should I appease?

Rules are not withstanding
I’m fluent in deceit
Over and over back and forth
Repeat, repeat, repeat

My penmanship is modern
It’s you I’d like to meet
Hold you in my arms
Until the enemy retreats

Love is way too powerful
All on-comers we’ll defeat
Every day’s more beautiful
My parents you should meet

Or maybe you’re not ready
To finally make the leap
Here’s a dozen roses
Now let me get some sleep!

Hot lamp sweating wet dew
Lights bright
Easy to use
Shadow forming on the hard ground
Loosely fit
Tightly wound
Spun, spun, spin
Knock knock
Please let me in
Out of the cold
Out of the cold

Sip soup from a yellow cup
Cozy, waiting to sober up
Bold thoughts running through my head
The red on the flag is blood red
Taken from our soldiers
Despite our debt
Compartmentalize your priorities
Keep it secret
Show no eyes
Less your own
Guided to the future
Attacking the unknown

I'm just your average idiot
Let me make that clear
I am nothing special;
A failure, but sincere

Clever are my thoughts
But I never follow through
In a lie detector test
I answered every question "true".

I smile through the pain
Feeling a sense of shame
Maybe I'm insane
Not right in the brain

Or am I just a nitwit
A simpleton at best
Gathering my twigs
To someday build a nest

Screaming out "I'm normal!"
But still not like the rest
Never fitting in
No matter who I'm with

You would understand the truth
From one day in my shoes
No need to feel pity
After all, I've got nothing to lose

Look at me with your adoring eyes
Let me see what it is you see
In the reflection of your pupils
Please help me to believe

I've misplaced my perspective
I'm no sleuth or detective
The clues are all dried up by now
I'm much more inclined to be receptive

I can finally stop to listen
And hear what's in your heart
There's no time to be deceptive
My love for you is off the charts

Put your arms around me
Pull me closer in
Hug me with veracity
Your head under my chin

I just need a reminder
To help lift my self esteem
Why you allowed me to come into your life
And why we became a team

How you brought the smile back to my face
When I had self induced poverty
How I went from rags to riches
And found everything in you....that I'll ever need

When you're all consuming
Alone inside your head
It makes it kind of hard to see beyond the light
With no one there to ask you how your day was
Or let you know, whether or not you were in the wrong or right

It's not always a gift to be a Chamaeleon
To blend in, as though you weren't even there
When no one makes you feel like you're one in a million
But everyone acts as though they could not care

I'm just one man in an endless sea of people
With two ears, two eyes, and a mouth
Is there no one in the world,
Willing to show me love
And learn exactly who I am,
And what I'm all about?

I'm not sure if it's me
Or if it's who I'm perceived to be
I'm hard to read
And a man in need

I'm so hard to read
And a man in need

If I saw you, and you saw me
Then that would be something
I don't ask much, and after all,
I see no need for greed

After all, I see no need for greed

I've never been one to captivate an audience
I don't care to venture into a war of words
It's just so hard, when what you say,
Doesn't seem to carry weight
The whole entire thing to me, seems absolutely absurd.

The whole thing to me, seems absolutely absurd

A mind that feels caged in
Oh, where to begin
With a wall of brick
Directly in your line of sight
That's when I know, it's time to close my eyes
And dream that I'm living someone else's life.

Dream, I'm living someone else's life

To fall asleep,
And dream I'm living someone else's life.

He was just a roaming man
With nowhere left to go
Turning down a winding road
Searching for his home
Staring at the lives of which
He'll never know
Wondering how he ended up
So lost and all alone.

He hadn't had a sober day
Since the third day back in June
So lazy he couldn't pray to God
So he settled for the moon.
This man he had some big ideas
But never set a goal
The world just keeps on spinning 'round
Where it stops, nobody knows.

Some days are transparent
Others are cloudy filled with smog
He never had a best friend
Not even a dog
He just went through the motions
Alienating everybody within reach
Making mistake after mistake
He was one you couldn't reach

He wasn't very stupid
He wasn't very smart
It was clear that he was suffering
From a broken heart
Among some other things
Disappointed in his choices
Which direction leads to change?
Running around in circles
Stuck inside a maze
Seems I've been saying this for days
Lost his mind, he'd gone crazy
Stuck in ambiguity
Hidden in the leaves.

You're in my head
You're on my mind
I think about you all the time
I'll leave my heart out on the line
Just hoping that you'll be mine

Days go by and I wonder why
Our lives got so intertwined
I play the tape back on rewind
Not sure of what I hope to find

One day baby, we'll be whole
Oh baby, we'll be whole
Just think of all the joy that could unfold

Some might say I'm walking blind
Into the darkness of the night
But you're the sunshine in my eyes
That lights my way no need for sight

Even on a cloudy day
In drenched clothes caught out in the rain
My entire life in disarray
But you're still perfect in every way

One day baby, we'll be whole
Oh baby, we'll be whole
Just think of all the joy that could unfold

My dreams consist of many demons
They haunt me through the night
I haven't any good reasons
To minimize my plight

I'm up before I'm ready
I go about my days
With the fear of going back to sleep
Just happy I'm awake

A never ending battle
A war I'll never win
Always starting over
The beginning of the end

Stopping for a minute
Just to catch my breath
Caught by a giant spider
Got stuck up on its web

Spun inside to be eaten
At a later date
How did I end up here
Could this be my fate

Trapped, I feel conflicted
Escaped my demons for a time
Worth every single minute
In myself, I do confide

Finally eaten and discarded
Bare bones and little waste
Though numb, I've been released
From occupying this place

Worn out my rude welcoming
I attempt to plead my case
Gone but not forgotten
I've vanished without trace

Woken just in the nick of time
Sweat pouring down my face
A dream within a dream
Dark as outer space

Sunshine and a Dixie Chick
Do not go hand in hand
Street walker, red lipped talker
Castles made of sand

How to show a dozen lives
When head counts only ten
Know what it is beforehand
Determined, let’s begin

Awake and sober now
Not ready for a cure
An almost famous person
Knocking at my door

“Hi, how are you doing?”
You’ve got to stay prepared
This is my last and only night of nights
Has me spooked, tired, and scared

It’s not for you or me to say
At what goes on in life
I leave the drama all up to you
Cut you with a knife

Not to make light of life
And I want to end it soon
Busy busy light to light
About to come unglued

Minding my own life to live,
You’ve got me misconstrued
I want to speak, take, and talk
And give only happy news

But sometimes I could just scream out-loud
Stuff to carry on
This Mother Nature after hearing the alarm.

I can write a song or two
And leave it all behind
Then I'll go and run off to
Somewhere to unwind

I have special powers
The gift of invisibility
I can multiply my numbers
There's one, there's two, now three

I can look you in the eye
If it's for you to decide
To stand up tall like a man
Or hide where I can't find

The answer is not really clear
It's muddled and unrefined
Reaching out to lend a hand
Grasping at what's mine

Held onto for way too long
Until it becomes a crime
But I don't mind a single bit
No, no, I don't mind

There's a bird to be set free
I know they'll come a time
When I'll spread my wings and fly away
With you by my side

Transparency is a welcomed sight
I love what you've become
The missing piece of the puzzle
The apple of my eye

I just want love
I pray to the heavens above
I just want love
No riches or material stuff
I only want love

I'd walk
To the ends of the earth
Through deserts
For all that it's worth
Just to have someone
To call my own
That I never
Again feel alone

I've spent years
Watching how others bond
Through long nights
Until the early morn
Holding hands
At the breaking of dawn
C'mon man, c'mon

I don't need much
I only want one
Make it fast
My life's almost gone
How much longer
Must I have to wait
Till she comes along
Till she comes along

I just want love
I pray to the heavens above
I just want love
You know what it is
That I'm speaking of
I just want love

Is she hiding
Somewhere in the crowd
Is she even standing
On solid ground
I'll keep on searching
Just point out the way
Nothing can ever
Lead me astray

Down the path
That leads to the unknown
I aim to roam
Any distance
Or close to home
To no longer
Feel all alone

I just want love
I pray to the heavens above
I just want love
You know what it is
That I'm speaking of
Give me love
Give me love
Give me love

I wonder if I'll be missed
If people will stop and reminisce
Of the days of yesterday
When I cherished every breathe

Will they smile in remembrance
Thinking of how I made them laugh
Or will they smile that I'm now gone
Swallowed up by deaths wrath

And to those people that I hurt
Will my apologies except?
Or will my plea for forgiveness
Be a pebble in the oceans depth?

A grain of sand on the waters edge
A single speck of dust
In the scheme of things
It's not so bad
Just a layer of Earths crust

I will join the soil
From where the flowers bloom
At least I lived a lifetime
Where others were taken way too soon

I will only regret not touching more lives
With my humor and my charm
But I've battled my own demons
That were cause for an alarm

My life had peeks and valleys
High days and the low
Always searching for the answers
Not many of us know

But my heart, my heart was
filled with love
For both animal and beast
There was good I saw in all
Even those who deserved it least

I do not know for certain
Whether God is real or fake
I know only of the story books
Written by a humans take

So in me there is some doubt
But my feelings' to believe
There is a greater power
That brings us to our knees

It gives us all some comfort
And that can't be all bad
If it spurns in you your virtue
Then it's worth its weight in sand

Eternity's forever
But nothing ever lasts
What's brought us all together
Which one of us will pass?

There is no such thing as perfect
When referring to a man
But the closest thing that we could come
Is clearly a woman

Such beauty around each corner
Over every curve and space
There is where I see perfection
Lost in their embrace

Mother Earth consumes me
Whether fair or foul
I use this term too loosely
Which may make people scowl

It's nice to have good intentions
But they're lost if you don't act
And they can weigh their heaviest
On a persons back

So LIVE before it's too late
Each moment of the day
Before you're laid to rest
Wondering what people will say