Although I watched it flying,
I could see it had no wings.
From a gust of wind it started rising,
And a handheld ball of string.
As my father began to run,
It kept rising ever higher.
I remember thinking to myself,
This was something to admire.
My father handed it to me,
Told me to hold on tight and run.
And as I ran across the field,
I remember smiling and having fun.
But all at once the wind died down,
And the sun crept through the trees.
My flying friend came swooping down,
Like it had been stricken with disease.
I heard my father yell out to me,
To pull tightly on the cord.
But curiosity overwhelmed me,
And my father's orders went ignored.
On that day I watched it crash,
From whence it flew so high.
Although I felt discouraged,
Dad just smiled and said "good try".
Even though it was not me up there,
I still feel I touched the sky.
And it gave me confidence to think,
That I, too, one day could fly.

I write but do not speak
My voice is really weak
I’m shy and not self- confident
My love life’s looking bleak

My writing is my therapy
Because therapy’s not cheap
When writing I am focused
Who else should I appease?

Rules are not withstanding
I’m fluent in deceit
Over and over back and forth
Repeat, repeat, repeat

My penmanship is modern
It’s you I’d like to meet
Hold you in my arms
Until the enemy retreats

Love is way too powerful
All on-comers we’ll defeat
Every day’s more beautiful
My parents you should meet

Or maybe you’re not ready
To finally make the leap
Here’s a dozen roses
Now let me get some sleep!

Hot lamp sweating wet dew
Lights bright
Easy to use
Shadow forming on the hard ground
Loosely fit
Tightly wound
Spun, spun, spin
Knock knock
Please let me in
Out of the cold
Out of the cold

Sip soup from a yellow cup
Cozy, waiting to sober up
Bold thoughts running through my head
The red on the flag is blood red
Taken from our soldiers
Despite our debt
Compartmentalize your priorities
Keep it secret
Show no eyes
Less your own
Guided to the future
Attacking the unknown

I drink the juices of the forbidden fruits
Just to get the high
It sends me to the stratosphere
And through the other side
I see visions of a cotton field
It’s essence soft and white
The skies, a reverent blue
Where dreams have taken flight
Far away, I hear a sound
A melancholy tone
I listen for the drummers beat
Unabashed or known
The outliers, the simpletons, the women filled with moans
The relatives’ adoring eyes
“My, look how much you’ve grown”
But it never ever ends well
A token for your tears
No, it never ever ends well
In time we’ll disappear
All that we have built
Discoveries we’ve found
There’s no more evolution
Over leaps and bounds
So, I’d ask you for your patience
Before you try and pounce
It’s softer where we’re headed
Yet it’s often mispronounced
Open up your vocal chords
Let loose of all that you hold dear
Secrets you’ve never spoken of
For years, and years, and years
Let’s dance in the streets of fire
Let’s go make a scene
Ask me what’s my one desire
After all, it’s just a dream

What am I supposed to do here
In this world that I reside
I want to do things my own way
But I keep getting denied

A lifelong search for where I belong
I know God knows I've tried
As curious as I have been
I take it all in stride

I have to find that one thing
That's keeping me alive
Something to go after
The reason which I strive

Be it women, money, or power
I need a tourist's guide
To show me which direction
Or who I need to bribe

To far off lands I'll travel
Along the countryside
To gather information
Or just enjoy the ride

Whether or not I find the answer
Or where solutions coincide
Then I'll decipher every clue
If only for my pride

You're in my head
You're on my mind
I think about you all the time
I'll leave my heart out on the line
Just hoping that you'll be mine

Days go by and I wonder why
Our lives got so intertwined
I play the tape back on rewind
Not sure of what I hope to find

One day baby, we'll be whole
Oh baby, we'll be whole
Just think of all the joy that could unfold

Some might say I'm walking blind
Into the darkness of the night
But you're the sunshine in my eyes
That lights my way no need for sight

Even on a cloudy day
In drenched clothes caught out in the rain
My entire life in disarray
But you're still perfect in every way

One day baby, we'll be whole
Oh baby, we'll be whole
Just think of all the joy that could unfold

When you're all consuming
Alone inside your head
It makes it kind of hard to see beyond the light
With no one there to ask you how your day was
Or let you know, whether or not you were in the wrong or right

It's not always a gift to be a Chamaeleon
To blend in, as though you weren't even there
When no one makes you feel like you're one in a million
But everyone acts as though they could not care

I'm just one man in an endless sea of people
With two ears, two eyes, and a mouth
Is there no one in the world,
Willing to show me love
And learn exactly who I am,
And what I'm all about?

I'm not sure if it's me
Or if it's who I'm perceived to be
I'm hard to read
And a man in need

I'm so hard to read
And a man in need

If I saw you, and you saw me
Then that would be something
I don't ask much, and after all,
I see no need for greed

After all, I see no need for greed

I've never been one to captivate an audience
I don't care to venture into a war of words
It's just so hard, when what you say,
Doesn't seem to carry weight
The whole entire thing to me, seems absolutely absurd.

The whole thing to me, seems absolutely absurd

A mind that feels caged in
Oh, where to begin
With a wall of brick
Directly in your line of sight
That's when I know, it's time to close my eyes
And dream that I'm living someone else's life.

Dream, I'm living someone else's life

To fall asleep,
And dream I'm living someone else's life.

Look at me with your adoring eyes
Let me see what it is you see
In the reflection of your pupils
Please help me to believe

I've misplaced my perspective
I'm no sleuth or detective
The clues are all dried up by now
I'm much more inclined to be receptive

I can finally stop to listen
And hear what's in your heart
There's no time to be deceptive
My love for you is off the charts

Put your arms around me
Pull me closer in
Hug me with veracity
Your head under my chin

I just need a reminder
To help lift my self esteem
Why you allowed me to come into your life
And why we became a team

How you brought the smile back to my face
When I had self induced poverty
How I went from rags to riches
And found everything in you....that I'll ever need

He was just a roaming man
With nowhere left to go
Turning down a winding road
Searching for his home
Staring at the lives of which
He'll never know
Wondering how he ended up
So lost and all alone.

He hadn't had a sober day
Since the third day back in June
So lazy he couldn't pray to God
So he settled for the moon.
This man he had some big ideas
But never set a goal
The world just keeps on spinning 'round
Where it stops, nobody knows.

Some days are transparent
Others are cloudy filled with smog
He never had a best friend
Not even a dog
He just went through the motions
Alienating everybody within reach
Making mistake after mistake
He was one you couldn't reach

He wasn't very stupid
He wasn't very smart
It was clear that he was suffering
From a broken heart
Among some other things
Disappointed in his choices
Which direction leads to change?
Running around in circles
Stuck inside a maze
Seems I've been saying this for days
Lost his mind, he'd gone crazy
Stuck in ambiguity
Hidden in the leaves.

I'm just your average idiot
Let me make that clear
I am nothing special;
A failure, but sincere

Clever are my thoughts
But I never follow through
In a lie detector test
I answered every question "true".

I smile through the pain
Feeling a sense of shame
Maybe I'm insane
Not right in the brain

Or am I just a nitwit
A simpleton at best
Gathering my twigs
To someday build a nest

Screaming out "I'm normal!"
But still not like the rest
Never fitting in
No matter who I'm with

You would understand the truth
From one day in my shoes
No need to feel pity
After all, I've got nothing to lose

Sunshine and a Dixie Chick
Do not go hand in hand
Street walker, red lipped talker
Castles made of sand

How to show a dozen lives
When head counts only ten
Know what it is beforehand
Determined, let’s begin

Awake and sober now
Not ready for a cure
An almost famous person
Knocking at my door

“Hi, how are you doing?”
You’ve got to stay prepared
This is my last and only night of nights
Has me spooked, tired, and scared

It’s not for you or me to say
At what goes on in life
I leave the drama all up to you
Cut you with a knife

Not to make light of life
And I want to end it soon
Busy busy light to light
About to come unglued

Minding my own life to live,
You’ve got me misconstrued
I want to speak, take, and talk
And give only happy news

But sometimes I could just scream out-loud
Stuff to carry on
This Mother Nature after hearing the alarm.

Of  course, of course  we'd take the world by force
What did you expect, it's not your fault you were coerced
Laser beams and rockets
Missiles up their sleeves
A ******* war that all concerns
What are we trying to achieve
Something has to be done
This has gotten out of hand
Impeach, impeach, impeach!
Please impeach this "man".

I just want love
I pray to the heavens above
I just want love
No riches or material stuff
I only want love

I'd walk
To the ends of the earth
Through deserts
For all that it's worth
Just to have someone
To call my own
That I never
Again feel alone

I've spent years
Watching how others bond
Through long nights
Until the early morn
Holding hands
At the breaking of dawn
C'mon man, c'mon

I don't need much
I only want one
Make it fast
My life's almost gone
How much longer
Must I have to wait
Till she comes along
Till she comes along

I just want love
I pray to the heavens above
I just want love
You know what it is
That I'm speaking of
I just want love

Is she hiding
Somewhere in the crowd
Is she even standing
On solid ground
I'll keep on searching
Just point out the way
Nothing can ever
Lead me astray

Down the path
That leads to the unknown
I aim to roam
Any distance
Or close to home
To no longer
Feel all alone

I just want love
I pray to the heavens above
I just want love
You know what it is
That I'm speaking of
Give me love
Give me love
Give me love

She couldn’t bear to look
She couldn’t bear to see
She hid behind a wall of lies
To escape her own beliefs
She stayed shut in the dark
She couldn’t even peek
She was too scared to face it all
Without the words she dare not speak

But then I came along
Swept her off her feet
Taught her to be strong
Instead of always weak
She shed now; tears of joy
Things no longer felt so bleak
Introduced her to her self again
I thought the two should meet
She learned to face her fears
She no longer screamed retreat
She found the courage to stand up tall
And land back on her feet

Words are just words
Until action takes place
Smiles last a while,
Don't let them go to waste
Good intentions are worthless
Some good deeds go unsung
You are the person you are
Until you are who you become
Change can be scary
Whether welcomed or not
What we learn about ourselves
Mustn't be forgot
What we put out into the universe
Is what we get back
Nothing comes from nothing
We must improve on what's lacked
Bend, do not break
Give, do not take
Be kind to each other
Be real, and not fake
It's never too late
To start a life you deem fit
It just takes a little know how
Elbow grease, and grit
Put your nose to the grind stone
Never ever give up
Give it all that you've got
Until you've had enough
Each day starts anew
You have from morning till night
To do what is required
To do what is right

If I saw a mountain, I would climb it, until I reached it's peak
With a drive to stay alive and prove to myself I'm not too weak
Battling self doubt, playing fair as not to cheat
Casting aside all of my flaws, none that I would keep
Scaling the walls to gain perspective, if blindfolded I'd still peek
Protecting secrets and all slander, Holding back with tongue in cheek
Chasing after unrealistic goals,
Whether too high or way too deep
Burning all my bridges, the only option left to leap
With no courage left inside me or the faith I ought to seek
Mustering up enough resilience
To separate the normal from the freaks
Gushing perspiration, soaked from head down to my feet
Drenched and sweating bullets, so much that I thought I sprung a leak
Words too often come without action,
It's plain knowledge talk is cheap

I can write a song or two
And leave it all behind
Then I'll go and run off to
Somewhere to unwind

I have special powers
The gift of invisibility
I can multiply my numbers
There's one, there's two, now three

I can look you in the eye
If it's for you to decide
To stand up tall like a man
Or hide where I can't find

The answer is not really clear
It's muddled and unrefined
Reaching out to lend a hand
Grasping at what's mine

Held onto for way too long
Until it becomes a crime
But I don't mind a single bit
No, no, I don't mind

There's a bird to be set free
I know they'll come a time
When I'll spread my wings and fly away
With you by my side

Transparency is a welcomed sight
I love what you've become
The missing piece of the puzzle
The apple of my eye

Despising ones self for the person they're not

Takes a lifetime of practice
and all that they've got

Stuck in the past and a prisoner of time

Locked up in shackles
In ones very own mind

Breathing in air that others deserve

Not sure why they're here still walking the earth

Remorse for a wasted life year after year

Seen through the eyes of loved ones and all they hold dear

As tears trickle down
Into a puddle of grief

It's all they can muster to feel some relief

Failure upon failure never tasting success

Makes a person feel worthless and praying for a quick death

Connecting with no one, left alone to wage war

Like a lion in sheeps clothing unable to roar

Waking from nightmares
Time and again

Not a soul to confide in
Not a single good friend

A constant struggle and the testing of ones own free will

Can crumble down the highest of walls that took years to build

No one chooses to enter or when to check out

Just an empty container
That's filled with self doubt

Conflict and turmoil and clouds overhead

Is where to find comfort when laid down for bed

A man that can capture
The heaven and earth
Stands cowardly before you
Unsure of his worth

Not a thought, nor a lie
Nor a second chance life
Not a soul to belong to
No one to call wife

My anti-social misunderstandings
I see the view from their eyes
Coddled and sheltered
Not one of the guys

Let gravity pull you
A chance to unwind
No cause for confusion
I hope you don’t mind

Timid and broken
Head’s pounding away
He’s a legend among us
What more can I say