A hurricane is coming
One with devastating winds
Time to hunker down and pray
Much to my chagrin

Worrying about our safety
Our unease and concerns
The danger here is eminent
Swirling as it churns

Time to be with family
To guard and to protect
Preparations made
For what hasn't happen yet

Waiting on impending doom
Hard to not feel gloom
The crack of lightning and the thunder boom
The gusting wind to its own tune

How do we change who we are?

The perception of yourself, from everywhere; near or far.

I've searched inward.
I had hoped something would jump out at me, but it did not.

If I could remember what I've forgotten, it would help thicken the plot..

I look at peoples ****** expressions as I gauge my retort.

I see disappointment in their faces, for something as trivial as the way I hold a fork.

I have a basic comprehension of how the world works.

I am often too difficult to read and come off as a ****.

I am quiet when there isn't much to say.

So I listen, and wait.

I ponder what I can add to any scenario or situation.

But I first have to rise above all my own mediocre expectations.

I pretend to be comfortable in the company of others.
Maybe it shows through?

There are many questions I ask myself, yet I get few answers.

What is it that separates you and I?

Where does the respect that people have for one another come from?

Where does it go?

What sets us apart?

Is it our upbringing?
Is it derived at birth?
Is our destiny laid before us, for all the years we walk the earth?

For my beliefs, I need permission
Wishing
Wishing never comes to fruition.

I enjoy my quiet, but often times gets dull.

Too much time spent thinking,
Can make one want to crack some skulls

What's wrong with me?

I say, "What's right with me?"

All anyone ever wants is acceptance,
Mixed with a little common decency.

Treating me as I treat you all in good harmony.

Synchronized in thought and sending out only good vibes.

A give and a take.

A Yin and a Yang.

Not the spewing of words.

Words spoken or not spoken; proper, or slang.

Just a general, fundamental statement to let us know we maintain .

Some acknowledgement.

We may inevitably, some day, drown in a pool of our own self pity.

But we do.

We do feel sorry for ourself.
"Poor me, can't ever catch a break."

Never made aware of it, until it's too late.

Dashing off, never to be seen again,
Like a high school prom date.

The ups and downs.
The highs and lows.
Bare naked to the world.
Totally exposed.
Underneath my color, coordinated clothes.

Knowing, isn't always the answer.

Doing, is.

Do it.

Just do it.

Let yourself win.

I used to have dreams
Like most people do
Expanding my horizons
Just to get back home to you

But would it even matter
Do you even have a clue
I'm a walking/talking disaster
The opposite of you

You gave me hope
When I was down
You lifted me up high

You encouraged me
When all was lost
I still can't look you in the eye

You helped bring out the best in me
And for that, I thank you dear
You saw what I didn't see
Even through you shed some tears

I do not want to make you cry
Or suffer any heartache
The day we met I should have known
It would all end up in heartbreak

I can't take that day back
My hearts under attack
You knew just where to find it
Like directions on a map

I hold you in the best regards
No apologies are needed
The only thing that I can do
Is make sure it's not repeated

Now my dreams have all been realized
Your smile has returned
There is nothing to fear at all
No need to be concerned

You're the love of my life
There is no denying that
I just wish I knew the ending
The last and final act

Will you know my name, in the years to come
I set the world aflame, just me, the only one
My inner voice is screaming
With the beating of the drums

No, i'm not conceding
I will continue breathing
It's pointless to go carrying on
When it hasn't any meaning

Speculate and gravitate
Towards the vibrant light
Stare into my crystal ball
A vision of your plight

Plummet to your deepest fear
And let go of the reins
Cast your thoughts out into space
Disregard the pain

What to see with a trained eye
Louder than a falcons cry
Must always do and never try
Stop waiting for Mother Earth's reply

Until that day, just move along
Mumbling some forgotten song
Men in power, weak and strong
Must it be, that we belong

I pray someday you'll know my name
I'm someone different, not the same
As is everyone proud and shamed
We mustn't dwell on who's to blame

Make our mark, leave a stain
To wash, and wash, yet still remain
Thoughts percolating in my brain
There's really nothing more to say

My dreams consist of many demons
They haunt me through the night
I haven't any good reasons
To minimize my plight

I'm up before I'm ready
I go about my days
With the fear of going back to sleep
Just happy I'm awake

A never ending battle
A war I'll never win
Always starting over
The beginning of the end

Stopping for a minute
Just to catch my breath
Caught by a giant spider
Got stuck up on its web

Spun inside to be eaten
At a later date
How did I end up here
Could this be my fate

Trapped, I feel conflicted
Escaped my demons for a time
Worth every single minute
In myself, I do confide

Finally eaten and discarded
Bare bones and little waste
Though numb, I've been released
From occupying this place

Worn out my rude welcoming
I attempt to plead my case
Gone but not forgotten
I've vanished without trace

Woken just in the nick of time
Sweat pouring down my face
A dream within a dream
Dark as outer space

I thought for so long
About writing this song
That I’d forgotten what it is
I was trying to say

That I had found a new meaning
To describe what I’m feeling
And I couldn’t tell you
any other way

I screamed it out loud
To the top of the clouds
Just how lucky I am today

That I found someone in life
To dream of at night
As nighttime turns slowly into day

The joy that’s inside
The wonder and pride
The time when I spent my summers away

Those were the days
Filled with bunk wars and raids
That I remember the fondest always

The summers of love
The fireflies above
Memories that I hold fondly
At bay

A form is born, yeah
Commission override
Straight into an aftershock
Imagining my pride

When it's over
The shift is made, yeah
Combustion in the pipes
That's my trade, yeah

Had to stop it
Called in the troops
Always slamming me
Kicking with those boots

You have passion
A truly great lovers tool
You had me so connected
But I was way too cool

Your a technician
A master of your craft
Asked for a promotion
He just sat back and laughed

So now it's game time
Just like tradition
Sent me out on
A greater mission

When completed
I went on home
My mother waiting
Speaking on the telephone

What came next
I shouldn't say
Had me distracted
Not in a bad way

Oh, how long I've waited
The games have just begun
Starting over
I've already won
I've already won

You mean the world to me
There is no denying
You cracked your whip
Truly death defying

I had a good run
No complaints
It's time I moved on
After finishing in first place

Nothing ventured
Nothing gained
Asked for a promotion
Now I'm getting paid

No dilly dally
Let's be on our way
There's nothing more to do
There's nothing left to say

Quietly
A sound permeates the air
Whispers through the monotony
But there's nothing for the eye to see

Not a word, not a word per se
Can cure my curiosity
Or help decipher the sound I hear
That draws me in;
Into a false sense of security

It's shielded by the breeze
That whisks about the trees
Illusively transparent
However puts my mind at ease

Does it come in peace
Or is it destined to deceive
Is it a subtle plea for help
What's it fighting to achieve

Shall I pay heed and embrace it
Or plummet to my knees
Demand its validation  
Or ask it what it needs

Is there a common language
That would lead me to believe
I should be in any danger
Or be obliged to feel relieved

It's awkward to describe it
Very difficult indeed
It's not the buzzing of the bees
Or crickets hidden in the weeds

Not a frog related bellow
Or hummingbird that sings
Not a cord struck on the cello
Or a ghost from Halloween

It's steadily approaching now
Almost within reach
Is it from another universe
From some unknown galaxy

Shall I stand in silence
Await the laser beams
Or be resigned to be a martyr
To do with as is pleased

I am one who's of sound mind
Despite what you may think
In fact, I feel a sense of clarity
Far from a hazy dream

There is an urge to disrupt the sound
Emit a high pitched frequency  
But that would defeat the purpose
For the answers that I seek

What is that sound I hear
Shall I run and disappear
Let's drop this whole masquerade  
Please reveal yourself to me

I promise I won't be upset
If you expose your well kept secret
All I'm asking is that this be resolved
Before I lay myself to sleep

I wonder if I'll be missed
If people will stop and reminisce
Of the days of yesterday
When I cherished every breathe

Will they smile in remembrance
Thinking of how I made them laugh
Or will they smile that I'm now gone
Swallowed up by deaths wrath

And to those people that I hurt
Will my apologies except?
Or will my plea for forgiveness
Be a pebble in the oceans depth?

A grain of sand on the waters edge
A single speck of dust
In the scheme of things
It's not so bad
Just a layer of Earths crust

I will join the soil
From where the flowers bloom
At least I lived a lifetime
Where others were taken way too soon

I will only regret not touching more lives
With my humor and my charm
But I've battled my own demons
That were cause for an alarm

My life had peeks and valleys
High days and the low
Always searching for the answers
Not many of us know

But my heart, my heart was
filled with love
For both animal and beast
There was good I saw in all
Even those who deserved it least

I do not know for certain
Whether God is real or fake
I know only of the story books
Written by a humans take

So in me there is some doubt
But my feelings' to believe
There is a greater power
That brings us to our knees

It gives us all some comfort
And that can't be all bad
If it spurns in you your virtue
Then it's worth its weight in sand

Eternity's forever
But nothing ever lasts
What's brought us all together
Which one of us will pass?

There is no such thing as perfect
When referring to a man
But the closest thing that we could come
Is clearly a woman

Such beauty around each corner
Over every curve and space
There is where I see perfection
Lost in their embrace

Mother Earth consumes me
Whether fair or foul
I use this term too loosely
Which may make people scowl

It's nice to have good intentions
But they're lost if you don't act
And they can weigh their heaviest
On a persons back

So LIVE before it's too late
Each moment of the day
Before you're laid to rest
Wondering what people will say

The change in the color of the leaves
Lay bare at the feet of the tall gaping pine
Twigs crackling with each new step
And overtones of the river nearby
No clear path, but a path nonetheless
Hopping over the trickling stream
Birds of prey screech from above
Always aware, but never in fear
With no imminent signs of real danger
Just the wind and the breeze
Whistling through trees
Thanks to Mother Nature and God, our creator

There’s something that’s inside me
Everywhere I go
It tries to disregard me
It tries to run the show

I opened up a can of worms
But that’s not any of your concern
If nothing else at least I’ve learned
Build it up to watch it burn

I did not win the contest
I did not win the fight
Losing became a habit
I wasn’t all that bright

I chased and chased to no avail
I tried and tried but always failed
I fell and fell time and time again
But I never ever got derailed

I stood up to my opponents
I had fortitude and drive
I gathered information
On what it’s like to thrive

I changed the stars above me
To better suit my needs
I became a man I’m proud of
Agree to disagree

I do not claim to have my masters,
But, at times I can be quite daft
The knowledge that I now possess
Helps me understand my past

The past holds all the answers
It's just circling its course
It did not take me 1000 years
To be this well rehearsed

A diamond ring in a cloudy sky still shines
As I reminisce to better times
Fleeting thoughts of a ***** mind
Can not one moment be defined

Erase the past and move forward
To the horizon up ahead
Separate the good from bad
Remember what was said

Listen to the voice of reason
Do not feel resigned
There is no gold at the end of a rainbow
None that you will find

Instead, rely on instinct
A reflex if you're blind
To help you see what is important
Made all by Gods design

Mystified


I’m mystified by the daily grind
And what it takes to remain alive
Through the eyes of passers by
Drip the tears that wont subside

Crying out through their disguise
Has led me to believe that they have tried
Tried and failed to win the prize
By those whom lived before they died

I'm open to temptation
The Devils advocate
A doctor to his patient
I think I'm feeling sick

Running from my demons
That hide inside my mind
The door is always open
And they often coincide

Released from my imprisonment
The weight from off my back
The feeling of entitlement
Attack, attack, attack!

A bright sun-drenched apocalypse
Burning my inner core
I stopped to smell the roses once
Why, I'm not quite sure

My vision sometimes fails me
My hearing comes and goes
My sense of touch compels me
As the smells elude my nose

Faith is all I have right now
But no godly man am I
When an angel falls from up above
It opens up the sky

Distance stands between us
The time is growing near
That I'll get to hold my sweetheart
My darling, my dear
There's excitement running through me
There's a skip in every step
My smiles' worn for all to see
Until my hearts content
Time has become a blessing now
When I thought it to be a curse
I'm unsure how this will all play out
But in my mind its been rehearsed
My anticipation is off the charts
That my beloved should now appear
It's like nothing I've encountered
Not once in all my years
The joy I feel is boundless
Yet it still hasn't reached its peak
I'm certain to approach its limits
Once our two hearts finally meet
To try and describe this feeling
Words just seem so obsolete
For emotion is heard its loudest
When ones heart skips a beat
I picture fireworks and neon lights
Yet nothing so discrete
That moment that our eyes do fix
I'll know what it’s like to be complete.

Dare yourselves to succeed
Do so non-apologetically
Strive to break from the monotony
In this life to which we now lead

Packed into capacity
A red alert like the blood we bleed
Continue with what now seems bleak
Until we embrace possibility

Depression is now a known disease
That often has gotten the best of me
As I teeter on catastrophe
I still stand tall to fulfill my destiny

Do not bend, do not break
Do it, whatever it takes
To realize all our hopes and dreams
And live our lives as though we please

We’re stronger than we know
Less likely to implode  
Inclined to survive and grow
To face all that is now known

Why we’d break the ebb and flow
Like festered anger about to explode
Held in check, cool relief
Attitude that needs a tweak

We are not perfect, rest at ease
Stay with me, exhale, and breathe
Take your time, plant a seed
And watch it grow into prosperity

Junk man come,
Junk man go
Through the hottest summers
Through winters windy blow

Junk man paints his pictures
His art which never sold
Junk man's growing tired
Junk man's growing old

Until the day that he lay lifeless
His body freezing cold
His real name only a mystery
That no one really knows

Upon his death his final painting
Lay beside his frozen soul
It was displayed in a fine gallery
Labeled " From parts unknown"

In awe stood the audience
His work of art to be behold
Junk man's piece that he had painted
Was the true star of the show
Bidders for this work of art
Bid high until it sold

He left behind his legacy
He lived hard and he lived bold
Underestimated and discarded
He'd have been worth his weight in gold