It hurt, but I still stayed.

I don't hate you,
I hate the fact
I can't have you anymore
and I hate
that I still remember
how good you smelled
and how perfectly
our hands fit together
I hate the fact
that I can't have
the only thing that made me happy.

It's hard for me to think of how fast I fell in love with you
I fell deep into a unrequited love with you

why is it that it was so easy for you to fall in and out of love with me? am I just so easy to forget about ?
yet I am still the most in love with you and I will always love you

And as i sit in the stands and think of your word, you strengthen me and make me a better me.

I can’t think of a future with you not in it ..