I use to sit and play with the scars I created myself and ask why am I so unhappy

I remember the way
the way you'd touch me
or the way you spoke to me
on the phone
day and night
lord do the tears stop
I think to myself
does this pain ever leave my bones
but no
I cannot think of a time I ever thought
I ever thought you'd leave
thinking my love could ever hold you down
i need to laugh at myself
now I no longer have my self love
nor your love
why did they never teach us self love in class
when everything was so much easier
I wish I never asked to grow up into this

Apparently ***** isn’t the solution to everything because after the fifth shot, the only word I managed to slur was your name.

just when i started to not need you
you called
i had a flashback to when you told me you loved me
i now miss you more then ever
but it hurts to see you with her
i have to remember that its not worth it
no matter how much i love you
i have to leave
i have to forget

depression isnt something that just leaves
i've had to find out a way to be alright with knowing
it'll always be there.
it feels like i am wrapped in a dark cloud
and i still remember
i still remember
those nights that id sit in my shower
crying, harming myself
i was oblivious of what i was doing to myself

People will do anything to distract their heart.
They will do anything to distract it from missing someone.