my friends send me pictures of them together
they send them when i'm at my weakest
not when i'm particularly sad
just when i'm the most vulnerable to become sad
i never get them when i'm happy and looking good
never when i'm cute and proud to be me
only at the times when i'm doubting myself
and feeling like my old self again


they don’t think about what theyre doing
they don’t need to

its my problem, not theirs.
i feel ignored if i'm not given full attention



but
have i ever been given full attention

be conceited

love yourself
love every single aspect of yourself
your thunder thighs, your braces
your back fat, the way your jaw clicks whenever you eat
something crunchy
your allergies, your stumpy fingers
the hair on your arms, and the way that you always click your
pen even when people ask you to stop
love yourself
love yourself until the day you die
and if anyone ever calls you conceited
you tell them

                                                    **** yes i am
                                                             why arent you?