So much more I needed to say,
I needed to know,
It's too late,

*You're just someone I used to know

I just want to feel,
Something else,
Something other than pain,
Something worth feeling,
Something beautiful and hopeful,
Even just for a day

Sometimes,
I feel dead,
My fingertips,
Are blue and cold,

Sometimes,
I feel nothing,
Not even when he's here,
Beside me,

Sometimes,
I am hollow,
And only the pain,
Can mask the emptiness,

Sometimes,
I can't breathe,
And just as I begin,
To fade away,
Something pulls me back

Maybe I'll just bleed,
For a moment,
So the pain will be,
Somewhere visable

Even  though they hurt,
if   you  pull  them   out
you         will        bleed.

Don't  you  wish   we
could drink red wine
on    the    sand    and
watch  it   run   under
our    fingers,   in   our
blood, washed  up  in
the sand   like    stains.

I need not look,
Upon the face of the stars,
To feel their brightness,
Upon my fair cheek

I want to help you,
Please don't push me away,
I need you,
I want you to stay,
I'll still be here,
We don't have to change

Stay a little longer,
The sun's still in the sky,
Wait another moment,
You don't have to leave just yet,
Close your eyes,
And remain beside me,
It takes everything,
To say goodbye

A rainbow sky,
From violet,
And marigold,
To tourmaline hues,
A golden moon,
With streetlight stars

I never asked you,
For anything,
I never let you,
See me cry,
I never called you,
When I was alone,
I never bled,
For you,
You never held me,
When I needed you,
You never tried,
To stop me,
You're not sorry,
Strike me while I'm down

I've thought about it,
For years now,
Sometimes for weeks on end,
The possibilities,
Nothing concrete,
Just the idea,
Just dreaming about the ways,
I could bring my world,
To a sudden and permanent stop,
Indulging in thoughts,
Of soft, brown earth,
Over my eyes,
As I watch the world,
From some place else,
Where the pain,
Can't eat away at my insides,
And reality is just a dream,
To my dimmly lit eyes,
Then, will they understand,
What they did to me,
That they cut too deep,
And took too much,
Despite all the warning signs,
The fatigue and distance,
My pale cheeks and thinning figure,
The loss of interest,
In all that I once loved,
The pure lifelessness,
So clear, so obvious,
That they were too blind and ignorant to see...

...Maybe I should,
Just so they will realise

When it's quiet,
I can still hear your voice,
Soft and lingering,
Surrounding me,
I can still feel you,
Faded yet fixed,
In my mind,
Your hands,
Cool on my skin,
And your arms around me,
Reality dawns,
Suns become stars,
You're gone,
When I most need you,
To stay

People say you're a failure,
That nothing good will come of you,
But they don't know you,
Like I do,
In my eyes,
You would be Superman,
If you could fly,
You do so much,
Expecting so little in return,
Saving the world,
One broken heart at a time,
I'm even beginning,
To believe, one day,
You'll fix me

Street lights for stars,
And smokey air,
Fogging the black curtains,
Of the sky,
I'm surrounded by night,
While I long for the day

Take me somewhere,
Where this pain will take my place,
In Death's cold hand

Take me with you,
When you dream,
I can't stand,
To see you close your eyes

Holding my breathe,
To prevent the tears,
Spilling into free-fall,
And struggle to maintain,
A blank expression

Tell me how,
To numb the pain,
To fill the emptiness,
And stop the bleeding

Another empty bottle,
Found my sorrows at the bottom,
Sleeping off the sunrise,
Fueling the fire

I am thankful,
For the rain,
As it drowns out,
The silence

I just wanted to say,
Thank you,
For taking me seriously,
When no one else did