It's not the rain
that makes my eyes wet.
It hasn't rained in forty days.
Nights are long and quiet.
The silence cuts to bone.

It wasn't rain that quenched the fire.
It hasn't rained in forty nights.
The well is dry... so am I.
Nights I sit in silence
while it rains.

r ~ 4/19/14

So it starts again
Creeping
Crawling
Into my head

Slowly devouring
Any sanity left
Amongst the mush
I dare call a brain

Obsession creeps
Down every inch
Of my lonesome body
From a lonesome heart

It has become me
The parasite inside
And its been there
My entire life

Why does it
Keep me alive

Girl
means what boy is not--she has what he doesn't have--she is more patient and intuitive--she can deliver babies when she's old enough to marry--
she will then be the centre of the home and bring the kids every joy through her love and dedication (the boy is then the father who just watches on and says: Yes, very nice, very good,  we are a happy family'--
where would you and I be if we had no mothers who were once the sweetest and prettiest girls?

pain
In you i found solace
In you i found comfort
In you i found everything i knew

pain
I have known you the longest
I have lived with you always

pain
I have known you since i was a young girl
before the world stripped me of my innocence
When i thought everything was pure.

pain
I have been engulfed in your maze,
Years and years of trying to escape,
But to my dismay i keep failing.

pain
You are me and i am you ,
The day i met you
everything turned so blue.

pain
I struggle to tear you away,
you keep chasing my happiness away.

pain
You came at my darkest hour,
but now ,
Even at my brightest you remain.


// 26 - 9 - 15

Go ****** your eyes over a photograph, it won't be enough to bring her back
Push your fingers through her heart, it won't be enough to make it restart
Tear your teeth into her cold hand, it wont be enough to make her feed you again