basil

basil May 2020

i decided
not to write
a poem
on mother's day

maybe next year

this relationship is... something.

i don't know yet.

05.11.2020

#mothers #day

basil May 2020

today.

i felt
okay.

and you cannot take that
from me anymore.

i had a good
day.

and that wasn't dictated
by anything of yours.

it's not very poetic. but it sorta rhymes. and i am trying to appreciate that i'm getting better.

i hope you appreciate yourself, too, once and awhile. you're lovely, and i sincerely wish you a good breakfast <3

05.11.2020

#good #day

basil May 2020

miss

the tears
staining my pillow
were not
for the fact that i was missing

but the fact
that i was not
missed

no one notices when i'm gone.

05.08.2020

#not #missed

May 2020

juno

today, may 5, 2020

today, i broke down
the voices in my head got too loud
and i finally caved in

everyone was yelling at me
everyone was mad at me

the thought of food makes me want to *****.

hell,

i thought i got better.

relapse after relapse.

i want to throw up all of those demons.

i just want to talk to someone who'll listen.

May 2020

juno

i relapsed.

basil May 2020

hunger

no one
asks me
for anything

so i
make
my stomach
beg

****.

05.06.2020

#eat