Everything seems so shallow,
like my masculinity is my purpose,
like a shield to protect everyone around me,
but I'm only protecting myself.
when no one needs protecting.
I don't know who I am anymore
The past few months I have changed a lot, no longer scared to experience my femininity and while being masculine is a characteristic of my experience as a woman since for the past decade. Maybe it's having no female friends forcing me to look within for that side of myself maybe getting older makes me safe enough to express myself.