you hate every thing
you hate the birds flying and the sunrise,
the afterglow and things that shine,
the butterflies and my silly haircuts,
the jazz playing and the flower pots
you hate the movies, the ones with Julia Roberts,
my favorite cereal and Gobstoppers,
the way i move away when you try to pinch my cheeks,
the way i undress your buttondown and taste your lips

you hate it, you hate every thing i love
but what's worse is that,
i can never hate you
i will always love you, even for that

You watched me turn to long sweatshirts and away from all the sleeveless cropped shirts
You watched my eyes turn into black tunnels as all the light faded away from them
You watched me turn to alcohol and cigarettes knowing how fast they could **** me
You watched me drown knowing that I didn’t know how to swim in all that water
You watched me fall hard and harder each time but never stopped to help
You watched me sink as the sun sank below its horizon everyday
You watched me cry everyday as another part of me died
You watched me turn from the light towards the dark
You watched me become lonely, lost and insecure
You watched me burn all the memories away
You watched my sentences grow shorter
But you didn’t help me and then
Came a point where there was
Nothing left nothing
Except the
Silence.

Tied to the kitchen chair i scream your name
In the middle of a cemetery i scream your name
Because your body may be dead but your soul is not
And memories still haunt me like broken dreams
Lies you have told me
Nothings is as it seems
I keep coming back to the place where your light touches my dark
Where summer meets the frosty air of winter
But the ice melted away and all thats left are the crystals from the forever snow
You melted my stone cold heart and made it warm again
Made it feel again
And now your gone
Your light is fading and my darkness is returning
I scream your name to come save me