are You who You say You are?
do You know what You're doing?
because i don't know.
are You here?
are You listening?
because i don't know.
i don't know if i can endure this
i don't know if i can live in this season
i don't know if i can keep fighting
and You say You know
and You're telling me You're here
and that You are who You say You are
and that You know what You're doing
and i can hear You
i know your voice and what You're saying
but i don't know if i can believe You
but i know You
and You haven't failed me
You haven't let me down
You haven't forgotten me
and even if it feels like You're not here
i will trust You because
i know who You are
and that is enough.

all i ever wanted
was to be loved by You
and instead You
made your heart my home
You kissed my tears away
and filled the void in my soul
and turned my sorrow into dancing
and made my brokenness beautiful
and placed a crown on my head
and called me yours.
all i wanted was your love
and You gave me life.

You come
to this broken heart,
this dry desert of a soul,
this broken and empty vessel,
and You come,
You come like rain,
a hurricane,
storming into this soul,
dancing your way in,
and You bring rays of light
and streams of joy,
and You shine through the
imperfection,
You make me alive,
You make glory out of nothing,
You build a home out of these ruins,
You make beauty out of brokenness,
You make these dry bones live.

y** ou are
o ne lovely human being and your worth is
u ndeniable and you

a re
r eally beautiful and
e xtraordinary but most of all you are

l ovable and anything but
o rdinary because you are
v aluable, more valuable than all the
e meralds and
d iamonds in the world.

today,
i woke up
with a smile,
because today
You kissed
my face with the
sun's rays,
today
You sang to
me and You said
that You loved me,
that You had not
forgotten me,
that You look at my
heart and You like what
You see
and today i
believed You.

if you think you've been forgotten,
you are not.
if you think you are alone,
you are not.
if you think you are small,
you are not.
if you think you're a coward,
you are not.
if you think you're unworthy,
you are not.
if you think you are unloved,
you are not.
you're alive.
your heart is still beating.
and in your heart lies fire
in your heart there is a spark
that will never fade
in your heart lives hope
and a chance to start anew.

You're so big
and great and glorious
and endless and amazing
and perfect
and You don't need
tiny
little
ordinary
me
and yet You saw
tiny
little
ordinary
me
and i don't know what You saw in
tiny
little
ordinary
me
but You chose to take
my heart and make it Your home,
and You chose to make of
tiny
little
ordinary
me
a canvas
to display Your glory,
to shine Your light
and even though You don't need
tiny
little
ordinary
me
You chose to give me a chance.

today was
a gray day,
a cloudy day
but i looked out
the window
and grace was raining
and i ran outside
and i let the drops wet my hair
and i was a little girl again
and i leaped and ran and laughed
and i danced in your rain.

here i am,
unclean,
unworthy,
a sinner,
broken,
an alabaster jar.
i lay this broken heart
at your feet.
i lay down every thing
i have
and i kiss your feet
and i can't speak,
i can only cry
because You saw
this wretched heart
and You gave all You
had for me and i have
nothing so
take me.

all i needed to find You was to lose

m y s e l f

you look in the mirror
and i know you don't see it,
but it's there.
it lives in you.
it made your heart its home.
it shines in you when you can't sleep
until your heart is on paper.
it is as real as your heartbeat.
it's woven in your words.
it rings in your voice when you sing.
i see it in your eyes when you smile.
and i will say it until you believe it.
you, darling, are brave.

it took me forever
to realize that You love me.
even though You've said it
countless times
even though You wrote it
in the stars
and on the grains of sand
i couldn't fathom
that You loved me.
it's just that You are
too majestic
too wonderful,
too magnificent,
too grandiose,
too glorious
to pay attention to
ordinary little me.
but You love me
You wrote it in the stars,
You wrote it on the cross,
You wrote it on my heart.

i could paint a hundred sunsets
and the sum of them would not equal a fraction of how glorious yours are.
i could draw a thousand seas
and the most beautiful of them would not mirror Your majesty.
i could sing a million songs
and Your voice would be sweeter than any of them.
i could love You with my heart, mind, and soul
and i wouldn't love You as much as You love me.

y** ou are
o ne of a kind,
u nique,

a bright star in the night sky,
r oyalty, made
e specially for this very

s econd in time, you are
p recious and
e nchanting and you have a
c aptivating
i nner beauty
a nd
l ovely darling, you are special.

when will you understand
that I love you?
what will it take for you to
believe me?
shall I write it in the sky?
shall I braid it in your hair?
shall I tattoo it on your skin?
shall I pour it in your coffee?
shall I whisper in your ear?
was my death not enough
for you?

Dear friend, why are you so blue?
Are you all alone because everyone left you?
Did you and your loved one part ways?
Did a friend move away?
Did life let you down?
Is that why you've got a frown?
Is everything falling apart?
Is it raining in your heart?

I have something to say
That'll take the pain away:
You are loved and you're alive,
Everything will be alright.
Face today with a smile,
Don't let your sorrows pile.
You can defeat the pain,
Go out and sing in the rain.

may my love for you be
wild,
like stallions on prairies, not like
stars
that fade away in time
but may it be
fire,
a dancing flame that never burns
out.

i am
every bit
undeserving.

i am smaller than the stars
and You think i shine
brighter than all of them
You think i am more
beautiful than any constellation.

this body is weak.
it's been on its own for too long,
carrying the weight of sin
on its fragile shoulders,
its feet are tired of walking on
this dry, weary land
and they cannot take one more step.
this soul is worn,
tired of being alone,
tired of aimless wandering,
ready to go home.
i need You to carry me.

stop fighting, my soul.
my soul, don't you know?
Love already won for you.
desist, o my soul.
faint not.

i am
tangled and caught
in my sin
disgusted and horrified that
i've done it once again
and i want to cry
but i can't
and i am so sorry
and i forget about You
and who You are
and what You do
but at the end
i always remember
who You are
and what You do
and i hear Your voice
it's singing
a tune of forgiveness
a tune of grace
the sweet tune enters my soul
and my heart
it courses through my blood
and it makes it
white as snow
it makes my brokenness
beautiful.

may i never get enough of You
may i never stop wanting You
may i never stop knowing You
may i never stop loving You
may You always inspire me
may You always make me wonder
may You always be my desire
may You always be enough.

even when things slip away
from my hands
i will not slip from Yours
no matter how many times i fail You,
no matter what i do,
no matter what happens,
i will not slip from Your hands of grace
because life is not about
what i can do for myself but
what You've already done for me.
i will not slip from Your hands because
no one is able to steal what is in Your hands.

you don't have me anymore.
I broke my chains.
I no longer believe you.
you made me believe that
there wasn't anything good in me.
you made me believe that
i had no value.
you made me believe that
I couldn't dream.
you made me believe that
I couldn't sing.
you made me believe that
my soul couldn't fly.
you were wrong.
so long, fear.

when will you see the stars that shine in your heart?
when will you hear the music that your soul is singing?
when will you see the sweetness of your spirit, the kindness of your heart?
when will you see the brave warrior living in your soul?
when will you believe that you are loved?
when will you see the threads of grace woven in your hair?
when will you look at yourself in the mirror and see all that you can be?
when will you see who you are?

Your love doesn't fit in the sea
and the sky isn't wide enough to hold You.
your thoughts outnumber the stars
and the sun can't shine brighter than You.
You are majestic and beautiful and mighty,
strong and loving and merciful,
You love recklessly
and endlessly
and extravagantly
and beautifully
and i will sing of You
forever.

all i want is
to know You
to know what stirs
your heart
to know by heart
the lines of your face
to tune my heart
to the music of
your voice
to know the rhythm
of your thoughts
to know what
makes You smile
to know your love
all i want is
to know You.

as sure as the sun will rise tomorrow,
as sure as the rivers flow,
as sure as the birds will sing,
and as sure as the moon will shine,
I will love you.

my heart was tired of
carrying this heavy burden of
guilt and
my mouth couldn't cry out to
You and
my soul was weary of
wandering and
my hands were chained and
couldn't reach out
to You and
my ears couldn't hear that
You
were calling my name and
my eyes were blind and couldn't
see
that You had forgiven me.

i used to wonder why
You'd keep quiet when
i talked to You about
my plans and my dreams but
now i know it's because
You've given me a
brush and a bright palette and
a blank canvas and
the freedom to
be free.

people will try to break you
and make you believe words
that are nothing but lies.
turn your back on them.
turn your back on the lies.
don't believe it when people say that
you're not good enough,
that you're not able,
that you're not beautiful.
tune those lies out and
sing a new tune.
a tune that speaks the truth,
a tune that says that you are
enough.
able.
beautiful.
important.
worthy.
turn your back on the lies,
because they're not true.
you know who you are,
and no one can take that away from you.

i called You,
and You came.
You came like rain,
a spring shower,
making everything bloom,
making all things new.

i will let myself
[my soul]
sink into your ocean.

i looked for You
in the bright summer days,
i looked for You
in the majestic ocean waves,
i looked for You
in the bright red roses,
i looked for You
in the starry sky
and i found You
in the rainy, gray days,
i found You
in the stillness of the sea,
i found You
in the simple white daisies,
i found You
in the dark, empty night
because You hide in
simple beauty.

You saw
my heart's brokenness and
you took the tiny pieces
of sin and hurt and ugliness
and
turned it into a mosaic of
beauty and grace.

just like the sun rises every morning,
just like a flower in bloom,
just like the morning dew,
every day your mercies are new.

My soul, it is well. O my soul, faint not.
Trust in Him, my soul.
It is well.
The wind and waves know Who he is.
Mountains bow at his feet.
My soul, it is well.
Faint not, my soul. He doesn’t miss a thing.
He feels your pain. He has not forgotten you.
He knows what’s happening in your heart.
It is well.
Whatever happens, faint not, my soul.
My soul, I don’t know what tomorrow brings.
But He does,
and he says
*“it is well”.

i ran away from You
and hid in sin,
in its darkest caves,
in its smallest holes,
in its deepest coves,
but your grace chased me
and found me.
everywhere i went,
there You were,
wooing me,
enamoring me,
and i realized i couldn't run away from You
and so
i opened my heart,
let You in,
and fell in love with You.

You know me,
You see me.
You know my
thoughts,
my dreams,
when i sleep
and when i rise.
You know I'm imperfect
and You know there's so much
more to be done in me
and You love me,
not the me i will be
but the me that i am.

you are more
than anyone could ever be.
you are royalty
dressed in gold jewelry and purple robes.
you are worth
more than all the diamonds in the world.
your smile
can light up the darkest sky.
your laughter makes flowers bloom.
your eyes are brighter
than a summer sun.
you are loved.
you are treasured.
you're important.
you're enough.

i leave my self behind
and let You put your breath in my soul
and it is no longer me who lives
but You.

i want to lose myself in
your gaze and forget all
that is around me and i
want You to flood my
thoughts and i want You
to be the air that i breathe
and i want You to be the
place i walk to and the path
i walk on and i want You to
be the reason why my heart
beats and i just want You
to be enough.

don’t be afraid to let the light inside you shine.

You rescued me from
drowning.
You stripped me from my
demons.
You broke my chains.
You gave me a name and
called me holy.
You took me from the
darkness and into your
wonderful light.
You chose me.
You made me yours.

my heart,
may you always be free.
my heart,
may you never be afraid.
my heart,
may you be wild.
my heart,
may you never spend your days
locked in a cage of fear.
my heart,
may you fall in love with beauty,
the beauty that lies in bravery,
the beauty that lives in joy.
my heart,
may you never be afraid to drown
in the ocean of love.

what do your eyes see,
when they look at me?
they don't see my faults,
they don't see my mistakes,
they don't see my wrongs.
they see new mercies,
another chance to get it right.
they see who i am,
not what i have done.
your eyes are a sea of grace,
a sea of love
i will willingly drown in.

i know words can't describe
Your love
i know words can't describe
Your majesty
i know words can't describe
Your grace
i know all the words in the sky
and all the words on the earth
cannot describe You.
all words cannot explain
who You are.
with my words
i'll paint Your love
with my words
i'll paint Your majesty
with my words
i'll paint Your grace.
i know all the words in the sky
and all the words on the earth
cannot describe You.
i know all words cannot explain
who You are
but i will try.

could You come to me?
could You meet me in an embrace,
and tell me that it's alright?
could You tell me that You love me,
that I don't have to try to get your attention?
could You tell me that You're listening?
could You tell me that i'm enough?
i need to hear Your voice above all the noise.

my heart is
a treasure
my heart is
precious
my heart is
not a toy
my heart is
not meant to be played with
my heart is
not meant to be cut in tiny pieces
my heart is
mine
my heart is
alive
my heart is
a wellspring of life
my heart is
fearfully and wonderfully made
and i know that full well.