Why do they call it being 'absentminded'
When you're present, more than ever, in your head?
Maybe live somewhere else instead.
My share of conversation's dead.
In one ear and out the other.
Swim in space and float in water.
my greatest fear
is mother and father
reading my journals
see through lines
because i write the unthinkable
'i might not marry someday'
and the perverse
'i wonder what's it like to **** this girl'
and the abominable
Amber is a woman trapped in the wrong body
i choke on the silence
because it is woman's role
in Saturday sermons
because i cannot borrow my brother's slippers
i am not needed outdoors
because when i spoke for the trans waiter with the pained smile
they blamed my sociology
and not my compassion
mother and father, bless your souls
i'd rather not have you read this
and believe in the 'i love you's
because love is the greatest commandment
*but we spit on the ****
if it's meant to happen,
but do not think this means
you get to sit
on your *** all day,
waiting for Fate.
do something about it
disturb the universe
swirl the stars
and they will dance for you
life is good and long
and there are risks
well worth taking
on this green earth
make them count.
im doing this thing where i write a poem every day until the day i move
my days are quite literally numbered right now
I never write poetry
I write crap in line breaks
sometimes I feel very very small*
I am here
on the bed
fighting desperately to be a butterfly
you are there
big strong wings waiting
to eat me.
I am small
like a loose thread from an old sweater
moving against fingertips
you could roll me into a ball
and you are the smudge on the window pane
that this ball cannot wipe away.
I am the small drop on the shower head
anticipating my great fall
you are the hairs on the shower drain
not going anywhere
hindering the flow.
I am small
and I am tired of you
I am sick of the parts of you still in me.
I am the cocoon
aching for freedom
I break my mattress cage
I crumble, choke, struggle
instead of fly
The feathers in my pillow
had a little help from my best mate, Phil Lester (her name's Jay Yp...you should totes follow her too).