maybe ill watch every single sunset
maybe ill sit and enjoy every sound that rings within my ears
maybe ill inhale the smell of rain every time a drop hits the ground
maybe, just maybe
ill be okay

Soft secrets we keep
About the people we see
Looking through someone else's eyes
Seeing how they are
Our love keeping us here
Our head fuzzy and ****** up
A light trickle of whispering winds
Not winds
But people
Telling me what to do
Guiding me through life
Because I can't handle it on my own
Sleeping my days away
As we suffocate in the snow
It's Cold out here
Unsafe
Unreal
Like maybe our world is just a tiny marble in a big jar of tiny stars
It keeps moving around and around
And spinning
Making us dizzy
Not sure of what to do
Our hearts hungry
For things we want to get through

one time i lost my moms trust
for running away
now i’m facing the same pain today
she looked me in the eyes, said,
“i can’t trust you anymore,
you took that away,
it’s gonna take a while”
i sobbed at thought
of losing her trust
because that’s the one thing
i’d **** myself over
the disappointment, the guilt
it’s so overwhelming
i feel like i’m choking and my stomach is eating itself
i have to live with this

i’m supposed to be the one you trust,
the one you love,
and i ****** up.

you’d think i would have learned,
it feels like deja vu,
reimagining child hood memories
that shouldn’t involve you