Sometimes we needed fantasy
To keep us going tru life's harsh reality
We needed to dream big dreams
To keep us awake
We needed affection to make us stronger
Keeping us real not fake..

I love you but you love her
she loves vain..
Love's what you gave her
while i gathered pain..

I love you but you dont love me
Now im blaming myself for being lonely
Is that what love is all about?
pure of nothing but doubts?

Summer begins but i love you still
promise myself to love you until..
A man wakes me up from my dreams
Showed me that love is not bad as it seems

He loves me but i dont
I will love you endlessly but to him i wont
How could i be such a dumb?
From the pain you've caused me im already numb

Then you continue loving her
Not minding my presence here
If only walls could speak
Then he will tell me whom i should pick

I continue myself for being blind
All saints day have been forgotten in my mind
Because everyday i'm already suffering from grief
Not minding anyone as time drifts..

He gave me a rose while u gave me a torn
He gave me light while you watch me burn
Why are you so blinded with my emotion?
Why cant you take Mr. truth's revelation?

December begins to froze the air
While me here sitting wounded in a stair
I gave you heaven while she gave you hell!
She gave you thunderstorm while i gave you bell

Here i am with this comfort and care
While you treat me like a crap and so unfair
You once told me you care for me but now you dont
Why you keep on telling me to forget you when you know **** well i wont?

Again i'm trapped in a love chain
Where it brought me a hundred folds pain
I love you but you love her
He loves me but why am i crying here?

I just wished to start a year with you
But you wished to spent it with her too
I gave you my love but you take it away
Now i will give it to a man who will love me every single day..

We dont need to argue
like what we heard on a radio
because you soak my soul
in a liquid of burned foil
i lost my soul
that has a lot of hole
i lost my sanity
its better to be a worn
than to be me
love cant make me torn
i am a loser
i am bitter
because i have suffer
from a lot of destruction
what life could do more from this humiliation?
as a sun drifts like time
why i just cannot make you mine?
i will build my own grave
because i am a loser
so go on and **** me
you dont have to suffer..
its not worth it because i am a loser..

I cut myself & i will cut it over and over again                                                            ­    
until i cant feel anymore pain                                                             ­                     
i can still smell your breathe u ******* dumb                                                            
­brings back nightmares i wanna get numb

i am in so much rage i cant breath
you are a ******* parasite even in my sleep!!
i abhor you, i loathed you so bad
never i had felt so ******* mad!

you used to be my hero used to be my ******* friend
but turn into a monster a ******* dangerous fiend hate the ******* life in you i wish you were dead
get off my ******* mind get off my ******* head!!

Why such a twain will unite as one?
When the words that describe haven't yet to come
Why does a bird will flap its wings?
When it cannot grow neither feather nor string?

A twain is a pair both had chosen
What love can i give when in fact i was forsaken?
Birds only fly with wings on
Stars only shine on the absence of the moon..                                        

Hence i was confounded by such fickle mind
Heed from my eyes to teach me not to be blind
A love that is unspoken is like a page without a word..
How can you bind each heart without a cord?