I hate it when you think others can fix you
Anyone can break and hit you
But you’re the only one that can fix the your tissues
Drop the tissues
There’s no use in crying when at the end of the day they still hit you
Why am I still talking to the mirror and why do I miss you
Why do I feel like you’re hiding under behind me so others might miss you
Instead of accepting yourself you hid behind my heart so I can endure the hell
I miss you.

For the first time in a while
I woke up with a smile
It was plastered on my face
Almost perfectly placed
Getting my morning routine done
Was for the first time, fun
And I left with that smile
Stuck upon my face

Walking down the street
Making rhythmic sounds with my feet
I finally felt like I belonged
Not a character in some sad song
I talked to people without a problem
Like my anxiety was gone
And I got on the bus with that smile
Stuck upon my face

Walking into school
Something that is normally a blur
Was for the first time exciting
The pull to learn enticing
I couldn't be any better
As I type out each letter
To this ode to a day
Without any dismay
And so I continued my day with that smile
Stuck upon my face

You glisten, glow, warm my heart through snow
Melt my feelings when I watch you go
Warmth pulsing from your presence
I love the show
Show me not to fear the showers of lonely dreams when you’re holding me
I’m falling through my thoughts I need to get a hold of me
Walking through a colder scene so I use you in my poetry
But you feel like you are never here
Your thoughts are holding me
And mine keep you from going but little did I know I’m the only one that’s holding me
I’m the only one warming me
I’m the only one warning me to stay away from the glowing

Pigment falling off the canvas
A figment of my mask off
The illusions in the past
My true colors getting on
The paper I painted with
Gray hollowness and tainted with
Toxic insects.

It feels the walls are falling
Under my roof I hide
From reality and the fallacy that I don’t feel alone even when I’m not the only one home
And where I’m grown doesn’t feel like home
It feels like I’m alone homeless and postpone from friends with this loneliness
My skeleton wasn’t built to endure this mental pain and my brain wasn’t built to hurt my friends
And it hurts beneath the skin when I bend the truth about if I’ll win for you
But the truth is I’m losing for no one and it’s been like this since day one.

Flow flow flow
Water the seeds and watch it grow
Flowers bloom in the forest full hope
Giving others love with so much to share
Even if such a beautiful thing withers there is more to bare
All with a story so sit down and listen
Doesn’t that seem fair.