I am thinking of you
As I lie in bed.
I think of you all day
But when it is dark
And I am alone
In my bed
Everything about you
Entices my brain
And I can't help but think about
How much I miss you
How much I love you
And how much
I wish you were here
Lying in bed
Next to me.

Don't write to please
Anyone
Except yourself
Because your words are meant for
You:
Your release
Your comfort,
Your healing;
Don't write to please
Anyone
Except yourself
Because you are the one
Who truly needs it.

Nothing is more relieving
Than being able to look you
In the eye
With my shoulders back
And my head held high.
Today
I did not tremble
When you walked through the door,
And in that moment I knew
You no longer have power over me.
You no longer have the power
To beat me down
Or make me feel inferior
Or make me feel worthless.
I am not afraid of you.
You may have won the Battles,
But I have won the War.

I am sick and tired of
Living in a world where
I censor my own thoughts
Subconsciously
Because I have been taught
To suppress
Because I have been taught
To put off what is bothering me
Until it piles on top of
A ticking time bomb
That is destined to explode
At any time
Without warning.
I am sick and tired of
Having so many thoughts Overwhelming my brain
And not being able to put them
Into words.
I am sick and tired
Of being so afraid to speak my mind
That I make it impossible.
Aren't you?

The colors are changing
But they are not changing
Fast enough.
Not fast enough
To satisfy my will to hold you
Not fast enough
To satisfy my urge to kiss you
Not fast enough;
And I think that the
Time
Will
Drag
Until I see you standing in front of me.