As you can see..
Im still here waiting for you
With my hopes in my hand
And my will to get close to you.

Can't you see..
That all that glitters is not gold?
And not all star will sparkle?
Now I know you are between the devil and deep sea.

I know that..
A bird in hand is worth two in the bush
And half  a loaf is better than no bread
But it seems like you're the only one.

But now..
It's time to face the music
Im not belong here
So I will just leave and keep the ball rolling.

In the nick of time..
I want to tell you that I love you
2 years waited for you was an amazing experience
And trust me,I will never find someone like you.

RB.*****

Day by day
I felt like Im such a stranger
Creature in front of your eyes.
Meaningless I mean

But sometimes
I felt like Im the luckiest girl ever
When you looked at me.
Glanced I mean

If only I could
Tell you that I loved you
Since our first met.
First sight I mean

Perhaps one day you will know
That all I wanted was you
And all Ive done is just for you.
The sacrifices I mean

Shattered dreams of mine
Broken jokes of them
Are all keep following
When trust start to tell me
The honesty and the perfection I wish I could be.

What is scattered on the ground?
Perhaps you didn't care
Because now Im fresh!
Well,don't tell me what mist is
All this while,I grew with it without you care.

Regardless what promise I've made
Because I supposed to be here;my right to love
Left you walked alone,saw you hopeless
Because I knew I didn't deserve these
Dont show up till you have our destiny
Because I remember that I should leave

So,you and I were addicted to jazz
That you bought a disc for us
I remember when you asked me to dance
But the shadow was dust.

One fine October day in Paris
Opened my door and you brought happiness
I could see you're happy with those memories
Now,and forever you're full with kindness.

I wont underestimate your sight
As you knew what deep inside my heart
You deserved my attention,Mr Right
Because we started an unending story in the yard.

Me,could vainly said you're mine
You,would never feel valueless
Because it was like " MY LOVE TOWARDS YOU NEVER DIE "
Till vengeance be the power.

Please please you can't push me to the prison
The Je T'aime festival has ended ;- a long time ago~
Im darting here and there to find help
That will lead and teach me how to be loyal.

Cherishing bliss that the Lord gave me
You're cranberries and they're rotten apples
Such an amethyst which is special
And dandelion which I rarely seen.

Last September we were planned to fall in love
Last 9 weeks people knew we are destined
In the future we both know we will be together
Until the end,people hear no apart word from us.

We laughed in front of the Eiffel Tower
You hugged me and I told you something
" Im always longing for you "
We happy when Im giggling and you understand when you're grinning.

You said condolences and you mourned
Right from the mess you misunderstood
You entered a bliss zone bumped on a foe
Couldn't believe zebras blinded your eyes.
The cranberries you liked had vanished
The cherries I liked had torn apart
Whoever valuable than a velvet
Is as special as an amethyst.

You brought a ***** and you drank
Right now till the end you're in misery
You met a ballerina asked for the name
Couldn't speak cause that was mystique.
The mug you broke came from a song
The bug I killed came from a demon
Whoever shoot the florists' gun
Is as agressive  as an ogre.

I can fake a smile.
I can pretend that I'm okay ....
but I'm only in denial.
My hearts been chained I've been imprisoned by shame..

I'm fine F for forsaken
I for insecure
N for neurotic
and E for EMPTY.

A few more ****
a couple more beers
and I'll be able to ignore my pain till Tomorrow
that doesn't change the fact that I'm Hollow.

Caught between empty sheets I lie
awake and think of a way so I can
drown in your tranquil eyes..

The grass will never be greener my heartstrings
tug at a brighter tomorrow.

A few more lonely nights a couple more mind numbing days
and I just might live to see the light without its enemy, sorrow.

Tears run down my cheek today my dear but I'll never blame
maybe tomorrow I'll learn to live without the pain....

Caught between empty sheets the monsters inside my mind
will surely haunt me ,the more the better all
I have to do is understand your honest letter...