I have destroyed whole worlds today
the stench of burning cities fills my nostrils
Quiet agony fills my throat
Endless wreckage is my vision
What horrors my hands have wrought
I step upon the ruined ramparts
I weep upon the ashes

I do not have the power to do such things
so few ripples have I truly brought
And yet my anxious heart feels like its caught
caught and shackled in the dry dust of emotional failure

You are
a calm blur
It’s so strange for me
Not to rush to see
But let you slowly unfurl

It’s been so long since my heart was so dangerously close to being exposed
upon the catwalk that is called connection
It frightens me
but whispers of peace have become my food
As I gently coax my heart into the open
I’m relieved to find I’m no longer paralyzed
nor terrified
nor am I too desperate for love
that I would quickly accept a fool

Your cologne smelled like happiness and contentment
Lingering on my scarf,
I smiled all the way home