I think I can't be what you want,
My ears never seem to listen  
My heart never lets you in like you want it to
My lips sealed, never saying words you wait to hear
But I love you like no other
I let you in the only way I know how
I pour myself into this like there is no tomorrow
And maybe after this there won't be
Because I don't seem to fix myself like you need me to
What I should do for you seems obvious to others, but not to me
See I may be weak but you are the only person I have ever tried this much for
But I think it won't be enough
Because my love is tainted, with broken pieces of who I am
And it is hard to find a way around that
I understand if you are sick of being a soldier through my love
So I am sorry, but I just don't think i'm enough

It could be too late now, to fix what's broken
Or to aid what once was true
We have fallen victim to time and distance
Still my dreams chase after you
With what ifs and wild fantasies
That sooth but also mock
We abandoned each other
And invested in others
Broken apart with tick and tock  

I still cry over what I wanted
That you could not provide
I'm sure you wish that things were different
But with the changing of the tide
We fell apart, not strong enough
Took the easy road; said goodbye
Now too far apart
You're saved in my heart
For I hope, another time

You've given me memories that linger, they leave a bitter taste in my mouth and everytime I swallow I am reminded of you.
You've left a sickly residue, placed flashbacks in my mind that spin me into a time I don't want to go back to.
I admit, for a while you filled a hole within me, but it was just temporary, your love was fleeting and unsure and your eyes were always searching for something more.
Because I didn't crave you nor did I dream of passion between us.
We did not share an inseparable love, there was no heat creeping into our cheeks making us blush, there was no lust fueled fire.
It was merely a steady and reliable warmth, something love could never be built off. I liked you for the warmth you gave me but nothing more.
So you need to release me, because I need the part of me that I left with you or maybe that you took from me.

How about I give up,
Here, have my hands to bind
I guess you've had enough,
Of me wasting 'precious time'
So I lower my defenses, let you in
I will stand in surrender and let you win

But my pride is not sacrificed,
I do not bow to your command,
You are nothing but a coward
I know you get out of hand

So my retaliation will simmer,
One day I'll get you back,
For your 'love' is now nothing but
But a malicious attack

I tried to give you warmth, to ease your darkened soul, 
your vicious thoughts prevailed, and I could not persuade 
I tried to ease your pain, but you had given up,                                          
all that remained was searing anger cast forth to destroy all love.    
I saw you standing on the edge,
ready to forget,  
willing to move on,
you took that one last step,   
creating crevices between us while I just held my breath,        
'please come back to me my love, this is not over yet'
but you were far too gone, a distant memory   
remember you chose to stay behind
I tried to take you with me.