I did something I will forever be ashamed
The one thing I told you, the one thing I claimed.
That I would protect and love you forever
But I let him get in between us, while we were together.
I allowed and accepted the attention
Because I felt no love or connection.
Was it right to have failed you as a wife?
No excuses, it was you for life.
But you must understand why I did my crime.
When you make me feel taken for granted at times.
You no longer try to stay, instead you go
You threaten me to leave until I fell so low.
You keep saying we will fix our damage
But how I am supposed to do that when you can't even manage.
So forever will have have a husband that runs away?
Fails each time to love me because you start to turn against me and stray.

Like an angel falling from the sky
The love you once showed me has turned to lies.
You abandon me, make me feel alone
So now I am scared and fear being on my own.
The anger and betrayal grows inside of me
You no longer hear my crying plea.
For you to stay and love me forever
I guess we were doomed, that day I met you that I will always remember.

Do you see the blue skies, so vibrant and bright?
Only to shed your dark spirits to light.
Because life isn't worth living if it filled with hate.
Change your attitude now before its too late.
Before you can't admire the colors in a flower.
Or when you rather argue than have happiness overpower,
Your soul, your life, your hearts desires deep within
Before your old and grey and wonder what could have been.
Your life before with the light inside.
The laughter, kindness, and caring spirit has never died.

I first meet you, my heart fluttered. Came home that night cheeks red and flustered.
I knew I had met the man of my dreams.
Try to give you everything you want and need.
Situations made it hard and stressful.
We lost a baby and now your mother is destroying us, a couple once so special.
But I still stayed by my man, trying to be the rock.
But now we don't sleep in the same bed, instead we just stare at the clock.
I hurt and cry and decide to scream out.
Anything to make you realize that there was something wrong, no doubt.
I tried and tried to get myself out of depression.
Of not feeling you there, no love, just frustration.
You said mean things, that made me turn away from you.
Feeling like we are getting close to ending this, we are just about through.
So now
my heart aches to stay but my mind wanders off.
I pick a sunflower, "He loves me. He loves me not"
I try to stay strong but become so weak.
I never feel your sympathy and we grow apart each week.
I try to build us back up, but we always fall.
I am struggling to get back up and now I am limited to a crawl.
So now as my heart aches I have to let you go.
Not only will I let you down but myself too, you don't even love me like you used to.
You cry and beg for me to stay.
And deep down I want to just crawl in your arms and lay.
Because forever in my heart I know you will be the one.
Forever and always Steven you will be in my heart, never gone.