Genuinely unsure if it matters to anyone that I’m breathing but wotever

Time to ******* act out because if you don’t no one will remember you exist or care that you’re still breathing soooo I guess let’s ******* test it and see how much they care **

tw self harm suicide


Ready to watch my liver fail by 22
lol I know what I’d do
Once it’s unlocked
Freed
Once I can have as much to drink as I want
Honestly I’ll hurt myself

Mmmm... I’d forgotten
How much I really do enjoy alcohol
Not the drink so much...
But the feeling
Intoxication is exquisite
Pleasant, content, peaceful, relaxed....
Mm... maybe I’ll have a bit more

tw suicidal thoughts



There’s no purpose in this life
No joy to be found
Every bit of pleasure is just a reminder
Of how empty this existence is
I’d like to say I still believe
But my faith is failing
My purpose is disappearing
And it would now seem
That the only reason I continue to live
Is because of the hassle it would take to die

when one survives long enough without receiving affection,
one ceases to believe they are worthy of it.

I don’t remember when it was
Sometime in my childhood
In that jumble of hazy memories
When I prayed to God and said,

“Not my mind, Father
“You can have any part of me.
“Do what you will with my body,
“But please don’t take my mind.”

And somehow I knew
Laying there in my bed in the dark
That it was that which I loved the most
The only thing I held above Him

that was precisely what He would take.