I talk on the phone with you
Every night

And I promise
There's not a day that goes by
That I don't miss you

-e.w.

16 years
16 years I've been breathing
Or, for the past few,
Trying my best to breathe

I cling to the blade
That for the past few years
Has been my only friend

I would've liked nothing more
Than to not make it
To my
"Sweet 16"

I don't want to be here
I don't think I ever have

There's nothing left for me
Can't I go home?

-e.w.

I told you
You would get sick of me
You would say that I
"Need help"
When really all I need
Is you to talk to me and make sure
I get to tomorrow

But no
My depression has now
Crawled to the surface
And can be seen
By everyone who dares to
Look

And now
You look at me
Like I'm a monster
Like I want to be this way
Like I meant to hurt you
I never wanted this
I promise I didn't

I promise
I promise
I promise

Please stay

Please
Please
Please

-e.w.

I always seem
To describe you
As nicotine

Because even if I'm
Sober
From the way
You make me feel

There's still that lingering
Addiction
Flowing through my veins.

-e.w.

I'm trying
to get better,
to not be sad,
to be okay

I promise.

-e.w.

I talked to you
about all the mixed up stuff
kept away in my
head

You were understanding
and helpful
and it was great
And I felt
much better than usual

You helped me so much
when I thought you would
get mad

But you didn't

And I'm so thankful
for everything you do

-e.w.

I'm trying to be happy

I'm trying to be positive

I'm trying
for you

-e.w.