I would rather pull my teeth
than bite my tongue.

I was better at cats cradle when I was seven
Than I have been at most things since.

I called you a drama queen and I'm sorry.
I called you a drama queen and I'm right.

God doesn't save you.
The Jimmy Johns guy saves you.
His name was Henry and I need to remember that.

I couldn't bang on the doors hard enough
I was too weak. I was too tangled.
I hope you're not mad.

Unblock and don't delete
Whatever you do don't delete
Don't burn a bridge you might need.

Then he held me and I was too weak to fight it.
Like when he hurt me and I didn't care.
Like when he ****** me but really just folded me
into more knot than girl.

I know I'm supposed to say woman.
I am not a woman.

I am a knot.

The silence is suddenly broken
by a subtle crackling of my smile
and I can almost see you there
sleeping cozily in the center of my bed,
and I can almost feel you there
spinning slowly throughout my head,
swimming in all of my thoughts
and wrapped up in my blankets
and I'm struck with such glee
because I know
that you belong to me.

The dusk made up of darkness
The dawn contained of light
As you were the break of day
I was the shadow of night

The bad made up of blackness
The good contained of white
As I was everything wrong 
You were everything right

©

I hate myself.