I was thrilled the first time i saw you
Loved the way you made me fall for you
You've got something that kept haunting me
You made breathing seem so hard for me

You were everything that i wished for
I just never felt this way before
You were everything that i wanted
But shouldn't i forget you instead?

Loving you was just a waste of time
'Cause there's no way you'll ever be mine
I tried to put you out of my brain
But my heart is screaming out your name

How will i ever forget your smile
You're all i see when i close my eyes
Forgetting you is not that easy
I swear you make my heart go crazy

How will i find a way to survive
I can't live without you in my life
Nobody else will fit right into
The place in my heart that's just for you

I still love you after all this time
That's something i can never deny
I don't give a **** 'bout who you are
You're the only one who owns my heart

I was aware
to not opening my door
just in case
you never meant to stay.
But how do I resist when
i kept on seeing your smile
and hearing what you said
by the window?

what if you told me
you'd stay
but then you'll go?

m.i

In the silence of long absences
In the retreat of unspoken words
In the confusion of dreams with reality
There are little thoughts and big thoughts
Little thoughts of how it feels to hold and kiss you
Big thoughts of how it feels to love and miss you.

Sometimes I fear you will never discover how much.

I saw you there and I fell in love
I heard trumpets sounding from above
I’d found my angel, I’d found my muse
The one I cannot bear to lose.



©Joe Wilson – My muse…2014

To tell you the truth,
I'm the girl version of you

The way you speak your words
and how a smile masks your sad world

I feel the sadness in your eyes,
how they're connecting with mine

Our heart's damaged,
trust's the blame

We give and give
but never take

We want to surpass the pain
and feel the love again

We want to be happy,
away from em' tears

We want everything
to be fair
and us
to be happy

The memory of pain keeps coming back but the feeling has almost completely vanished.
Its strange that at times, I seem to want to cherish pain, but there is no pain anymore.
Nothing to cry for...nothing to feel for.
My life might attract many onlookers.
A life with no pain, a life with only smiles and laughter.
But let me warn you, its very difficult to attain such a life where you have escaped all fears of pain, all feelings of pain and all people causing the pain.  
Its not easy to reach a point where you can forget at will and remember only on command...
Its not easy...
Perhaps only when we get the whole share of our pain, we attain a state where we can switch on and switch off pain at will...
But believe me...
That's not something you'll want to have...