I have never been so sure of something  more
That I loved you
Upside down, inside out
Left to right
To never let you go a days unnoticed
Please don’t leave me behind

But I- pass you into new hands of youth
To bathe in your ponds of vitality
For the trees to feel the wind before you
To watch the swallows fetch feathers in the motion of draped garland

To learn to love this land as much as I have

My own, to yours

relationships are like bridges.

don’t burn bridges
even if they are less traveled

don’t burn bridges
even if they have failed you

Rebuild the ones that were once traveled greatly
or
Let them become Overgrown
Let them become Vacant.

keep your Integrity.

you remind me
that were all
human

to you
i will always be a missed opportunity

Ask yourself
Are you in love
Or are you just lonely-

Craving for someone to love you

I'm so afraid I won't find anyone

how old are you-
so young
my dear-
relax

and delete tinder

i want to be everything i'm not
and nothing that i am

but everything i am
is enough

why is it so hard to love
what you hate

learn to love
what you hate.

Mothers
Talking to daughters

Jaded voices,
Become subdue.

Eyes gazing
Daughter-
Stiffed black corduroy dress

Threading interwoven
Fagoting stitch
A bridge between two edges.
Seam.

All I could think about was you.
Intertwined with you
Soul to soul.

Silent.

i bend over
and every inch of my spine
comes together
holding a body
that can barley be supported

i like when i look in the mirror
and my hip bones show

let me tell you
i’m so ******* hungry
i’m so angry
i’m so ******* tired

i’m so afraid
that letting you go
will be the biggest mistake of my life

*****, Tito’s?
Whatever you have is fine
Ginger beer
Garnished with lime
Copper mug

Copper
Taste of blood
Rushing to your head
Sharpening with every word I speak
A splitting headache
You always claim to have, when your

You’re
Upset

I want to commit.
You are my only happiness.

How I
let you down
Left and gone
And all I can think about is those two sentences that should never be spoken subsequently and the unwanted control I was given.

Irish temper
Get the hell out of my kitchen

Once abandoned baby
Coo.

Don’t come back-

Gone.
Gone?
Yes, gone.

Ginger hair becomes white
White, white

I hope my hair looks like yours,
when I’m older

I laughed more tonight, than I have in awhile
Wholesome friends
And sweet,
Sweet laughter

I pushed you too far
You pushed for me
But you wouldn’t let me go down that path any longer
I thought you failed me
You only did it out of love
I got sick
You were unable to fight it off
You weren't weak
You didn’t have another choice
You fainted
Hands that saw your true beauty that I couldn’t see caught you.
Dad caught you.
You became frail
You became pale
Doctors saw illness
Needles pricked in you
Tests were taken

But I saw beauty
That still needed “more” progress

I will not let myself go down that path again

Thank you
You taught me love
You taught me acceptance
You taught me that eating is a form of self respect
I want to grow with you

I love you

i am so scared
you won't like how i've changed

your hands touch my body
and play me
like the beautiful song
with rhythm
and sweet words
i was always meant to be

My chest tightened
Knees sweltered on these marble stairs
Dirt in grain-
Sweat in pores
Broken under the blazed sun
Fetal.

it’s ok to out grow someone-

i don't know who you are
i don't know the person you're becoming
i don't want to know the person you're becoming

please come back

I may have out grown you
But my heart will always come back to you
I love you forever

I love you always

imagine
what it feels like to find
the One

i’ve outgrown you.

overthinking is the key
to destruction
and i have demolished cities

I'm a soft woman.

My body is pure
My mindset is corrupt
And together
Hand in hand
We become
Partners in Misery

you asked me why didn’t we do this earlier

i’ve been loving you forever
and you never knew

until now

weakness is
living in the past
strength is
living in the present

I felt so much
Comfort
In the Arms
That broke my heart

you still have time.
to Live.

I live in the past
but with you,
I feel present

The sky cries for you
Let it pour.

Tears of joy.
Tears of misery.

I bend over
and every inch of my spine
Comes together
Holding a body
That can barley be supported

Let me tell you
I’m so ******* hungry
I’m so angry
I’m so ******* tired

I find you-
in everything i see

Let me go back in time
Let me prepare for this heartbreak
Let me stand strong
For now I am Weak

She is lovely
like apricot juice-
sweet and ****

delicate
like ripe fruit

You lost
The one person
Who handed you her heart

You will never find a love like me again

I love when
The sea air
Dances with your hair

You are so beautiful

I put all my worth into the hands of people
that don't know me

Two hearts broke tonight.
Yours,

But, you shattered
Mine.

After all this time I never knew

You are your biggest enemy
I remained silent-
Invulnerable

With no one to prey on
No one to mask your insecurities
You tore yourself down

And I remained silent

I cannot wait to
Love someone
In my own skin

He lay, slumber, neck perched against the wooden desk covered in a sage silky cloth. Teeth rested against his bottom lips. Through the gap between his teeth is a low-pitched breathing, like a tea kettle finishing its brew in the rhythm of the rise and fall of his stomach. While his thick eyebrows resemble their origin contradicting to the bristly stubble on his head, parading his full cheeks that melt into his quivering chin. His thighs represent the one’s of his mothers with natural aging much to evident for such a young child. His stomach exhibited its roundness, open to the still air.

I got high in poetry class today.

If you still read my poems, read this one

I’m going to lay it all on the line

The same way children do when speaking bluntly to strangers, and their mothers have to apologize on their behalf. Although I’m not apologizing.

I think I’m bisexual
I’d never tell you
I’m too afraid you'll never want me back
Like a malignant tumor that you want to make sure is
dead and gone and gone and gone again.

But,
when the sky’s drippy yoke rises over the horizon
You’re on my mind,

the world is growing inside me
a flower is blooming on a beautiful day
in a few months the sky will become grey
causing my flower to wither away
i ask myself
why can’t it stay
i hope that one day
i can pick my flower
place it in a vase  
water it
and let it grow
i hope that one day
for me
another flower will blossom my way

i forced the seasons to change
i made my flower wither away.

i am the Storm.
i am the Sun.

The world is growing inside me
A flower so pure and raw
Blooming
I am the sun-

The sky becomes grey
Withering, my flower becomes
Somber
I am the storm-

I forced the seasons to change

I am the sun
I am the storm