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  Jun 2016 ejrmaguire
mak
and he was like a drug to her
the more she took
the more she got addicted
ejrmaguire Jun 2016
Another time... another place...
The you and I of before...
Before I knew what I know now.
You bring me back...
To that place... that girl.. that didn't know what was to come.
You apologize... everything.
Every time...
I can't forgive you.. because I haven't forgotten...
And it takes time...
Months on end.. the waiting
Court...waiting on a sentence to change this...
You changed me..
I'm not the girl I ws before you...
I'm damaged... broken...
Wanting to be alone...
The opposite of what I wanted with you...
Those shattered emotions...
Because of you...
There's no tears.. no regret.. just acknowledgement.
Of the wrongs committed against me while I loved you.

I'm broken and we are waiting.
Everything takes time..
Your words always take me to a sad place...
My voice saves you...
Another time another place... maybe...

E.J.M.
  Apr 2016 ejrmaguire
summer
When someone asks me,
If I am in love,
I want to say no.

Because saying yes,
Will be more painful,
For me to say.

When I walk down the street,
I want to feel free from love,
I want to let go.

When I was younger all I wanted was love,
But I was naïve and fell for you,
And your lies.

I read those fairytale endings,
Where the princess’s met their prince,
And lived happily ever after.

I wanted that,
That’s all I ever wanted,
That one thing.

But in this world,
You cannot ask for something,
Without getting something in return.

Heartbreak,
Heartache,
Alone.

You were soo nice to me at the start,
You didn’t want much,
But then you started to lie.

And I believed you,
Why?
I don’t know why.

I hated myself,
Whenever you hit me,
Because it was all my fault.

Too late for it now,
Sorry wasn’t an answer,
All I wanted to was to be in love.
ejrmaguire Apr 2016
Aren't we all just pieces of someone else?
Some sense memory.. tied in to memories..
Snippets of previous interactions?
The way you walk reminds someone of someone else...
The way your eyes light up...
Someone saw that same sparkle..in another place and time... on another person.
We are ourselves completely....
But to someone else... we are merely pieces...
Some sense memory of someone else...
That they use to know..

E.J.M.
ejrmaguire Apr 2016
The smile lights my world...
You across the parking lot..
Whistling at me.
Me blushing.
Our playful bantering...
It's gone..
You are stunning, fierce, loving,  gorgeous and beautiful.
I could watch you work for days...
That smiles gone...
That smile that was just for me...
Where did it fade to?
You're still stunning but cold...
I'm here frozen with the heartbreak of it...

I just want your smile back...

E.J.M.
ejrmaguire Apr 2016
T
Tuesday came... and I saw you...
Beautiful as ever..hard and ****..
I looked at you..you ignored me for the first time ever..
It felt like a slap in the face..
My playful lover, gone away..
And I froze up
I forgot what to say...
How to say it...
Maybe if I'd said something I wouldn't be writing this poem about my frozen heart...
I walked away.
It's what you wanted.  
I took my caught feelings and did exactly as you wanted.
I made it easy for you... because I love you.
This isn't what I want... I didn't say it..
I said nothing...
All frozen and numb... wanting desperately to flee from you...
Someone two days ago I couldn't wait to kiss..
You pulled that stone around you and pushed me out of a speeding bus...
My hands were shaking,  breath catching in my throat, voice catching there too...
You let me walk away..
I should have said something...
Though a day later... after hours of pondering...
I still don't know what ....
would it have mattered?

E.J.M.
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