So I Tried To help...To support...Whatever Way you chose
And now I'm crying because I never meant that much to you.
Fear of the fearless...
The beauty in you ,scared me...
I wanted to touch it..taste it..understand it... be a part of it for awhile..
That's what I got..
My fear was well founded..
Fear of the fearless...
That heartbreaking beauty and strength....
It scarred me...
Here I am... Loving you alone...
Here I am breaking....
Giving you up like you asked...
I am fearless as well...
Do not want me back once I'm gone..

E.J.M.

Catching feelings....
I should have walked away at that moment.
But I stayed... and when I tried to let you go... you told me no
Catching feelings with all this in between between us...
I'm left wondering where our in  between went?
No words from you since Sunday?
Here I'm caught up in the feelings that I caught... for you... feeling stupid.
Tomorrow,  what to say when I see you?
Maybe say nothing at all...
I got my wish... now I want more..
I caught feelings... with our in between...
Guess you lost your feelings,  maybe let them go...

E.J.M.

I'm not a cryer...
Much worse has happened in my life...
Yet here I am crying over you..
I'm good...
Don't text me in the morning.
I have unrealistic expectations...
Excuse me... I mixed up lust with love...
You are beautiful and I am broken...
It's ok... you owe me nothing.
I'll be fine..
I'll be cold...
Don't worry about it.
It's just my heart.
That ***** can take a beating...
Sorry that I interfered in your life...
It won't happen again.
You've got me crying.
Some 28 year old strong, determined, beautiful you ....made me cry...
I'm harder than that... harder than this..
maybe I thought we had something.
Apparently we don't.
And who am I kidding?
This would never have worked.
But I'm still crying,  by myself,  to myself and part of me might be breaking for you...
you'll never know..
I'll just be gone...
I can't keep doing it...
just know it's all I wanted...
be happy.. because that's what love is.
you made a choice, and I can read between the lines.

E.J.M.

I'm not a cryer...
Much worse has happened in my life...
Yet here I am crying over you..
I'm good...
Don't text me in the morning.
I have unrealistic expectations...
Excuse me... I mixed up lust with love...
You are beautiful and I am broken...
It's ok... you owe me nothing.
I'll be fine..
I'll be cold...
Don't worry about it.
It's just my heart.
That ***** can take a beating...
Sorry that I interfered in your life...
It won't happen again.
You've got me crying.
Some 28 year old strong, determined, beautiful you made me cry...
I'm harder than that... harder than this..
maybe I thought we had something.
Apparently we don't.
And who am I kidding?
This would never have worked.
But I'm still crying,  by myself,  to myself and part of me might be breaking for you...
you'll never know..
I'll just be gone...
I can't keep doing it...
just know it's all I wanted...
be happy.. because that's what love is.
you made a choice, and I can read between the lines.

E.J.M.

You are amazing and beautiful...
This fighter... this strong, hard gorgeous man...
Trying to survive....
So fearless in your perseverance...
I'm in awe of who you are...
All that fight made me love you..
Just snuck in and hit me.
Loving you scares me...
I'm hard and equally fearless...
But am in danger of loving you...
We could be amazing....
You already are...

E.J.M.

That moment when you want something so badly but are not sure of the best way to proceed..
Fear of the fearless...
One wrong word and it's gone..
Out of reach, barely breathing..
Which way to go?
Be yourself and roll the dice?
Be yourself with kid gloves...
Trying to Gauge the situation.
Loving the opportunity to know him...
Being afraid that he won't let you...
This means a lot to me...
I'm scared of this moment...
I held him and wanted it to last...
His world went upside down overnight....
And I'm trying to get it back...
So torn between my happiness and his...
Ultimately I want him happy...
There's the love part..
That's the part that snuck in and hit me in the face...
So I'll be me...
He doesn't want my help...
That's all that I have to offer...
I love you... which means I'll risk losing you...
fear of the fearless

E.J.M.