You say that you love me more than anything
But if that were true
You wouldn't only think of the present you
You would be the responsible adult I needed you to be
And you would take care of me
You would have a job
And clean the house
And try not to get so mad

You say you love me more than anything
But if that were true
You would think if me too
You would change for me
You would go to therapy
You would get better and become stable

So
Before you say you love me more than anything
Do those things
Because now
I can see that you are lying

Before you say that
Mean it
Those are some powerful words to lie
If you had crossed your heart
You would have died

I wear it so nice
the smiles so genuine
the laughs so warm

yet behind the closed doors
music blaring in my ears
drowning my own thoughts

Only then can I be me
but from wearing the mask so long
I
collapse