*******
So once again you’re in my thoughts, you managed to somehow weasel your way back into my head
I don’t know why, you’re not very good at comforting me when I’m down, your choice of words made me wish I were dead
But that’s okay, it’s not your fault, I should have never put you on that so undeserving pedestal
So what consoling is not your very best
I just wanted you to be there, put forth effort that you cared, you failed the ******* test
I was vulnerable, I opened up, I’m an opened wound, now there’s nothing left
You say I’m playing victim and have to be more positive but I’m the one dealing with all this pain
No thanks to you all by myself
With no help of drugs or alcohol to ease the anger and anxiety
That you seem to intensify inside of me
Maybe I should walk around oblivious and aloof like you but my ability to be sympathetic and empathetic towards others keeps me conscious and sane
Regardless of the pain

You say I shouldn’t feel the way I do, I should **** it up, keep quiet
But if you were in my position and got ****** over the way I did, right now you would be crying
Because I remember back when something similar like this happened you were crying and I know if I were to confront you about it you would deny it
Well I’m not one to bring up the past to make someone feel embarrassed or worthless
Because you’re so good at lying and hiding things and flirting with the guys to get your way, you know how to work it
You’re so good at sorry
But the difference between us is I follow my heart, I don’t give my love out or flirt just to make me feel relevant

I told you time and time again how I was feeling
You only bothered when you wanted, most of the time you just said nothing

Time and time again I showed you what love is
You made me feel so irrelevant, I’d rather you say something even if you said you don’t want it, but you just said nothing

Thanks for opening and pouring salt in these wounds
Now I have no ***** left to give
You try to say I’m overreacting
But you must not know me, I’m resilient
You try to act like you’re so innocent
Now that you’re not crying and everything is so perfect for you but one question how can you trust those guys' whose ***** been in your throat
You can **** on these words and choke

Why don’t we go back to the beginning, I was the one who was here
Supporting you through no matter what, showering you with the sweetest words, I was there
But you don’t even care
You forget everything, sometimes I wonder where does your mind disappear
I’m DOOOOOOOONNNNEEEEE

I guess I’m too much for you, oooohhhhh
I’ve tried to turn your world upside down to hide that I’m irrelevant
Who the **** are you to turn my emotions like this up
Your silence, I get it, it means it’s enough
I’m done, I’m not a weak girl, I’m tough, but I’m no fool to just keep giving away my love
You may have had me duped, you even told me that I was the sweetest to you
But enough is enough, I hope those *****/guys will be there for you

She says
Sometimes your loving is too much
Just too much
Sometimes your touching is too much
Just too much

She says at night love me and touch me in that special way but when it comes to the morning
She wants me gone by then
When her man is not by her side
She’s feeling me and taking me on a wild ride
She doesn’t ever want to see the best of me, the nice in me, I have to pull back my passion and affection, all these emotions I have to let it be
All these feelings I must hide
She’s never wanting to know the real me, the emotional me, she’s never wanting to see me on the inside

She says
Sometimes your passion is too much
Just too much
Sometimes your affection is too much
Just too much

She feels that my emotions are too much
Sometimes I feel chicks don’t like when I’m sweet, they prefer me mean and rough
I can be nice, I can be sweet, I can be tough
But I think enough is enough
Over time I’ve learned not to become too attached
When she’s pulling away, it’s better to not overreact
If she really wanted to stay, if it was meant to be
She would accept the cuddly, passionate, affectionate me
She tells me she’s not gay or bi but that she’s straight even though she ***** me and been with other chicks
I guess I’m just a little confused, lost,  I’m not really understanding this
But I understand no woman can replace her man or his ****
But just admit you’re queer for chicks but whatever I’m over it
It’s just better to stay detached
If she’s the one for me, we’ll be intact

She says
Sometimes you’re just too much
Just too much
Your loving is too much
Just too much

My head it aches

For you my heart breaks

My body it’s really numb winded

I can’t think right

But I think I may be dumbfounded

Why can’t you see

What you’re doing to me

I really want you bad

It just makes me sad

My head it aches          

For you my heart breaks

My body it’s numb winded

My friends say I’m obsessed

I’m just dumbfounded

I do anything to be with you

Only if you knew

But I think you do

You’re playing with my mind

I don’t think that’s really kind

But I don’t mind

Because I see nothing but you, I’m blinded

For you I’m dumbfounded

Baby you are the sunshine in my blue skies
I want to spoil you as my queen and sing you to sleep with lullabies
Baby just know whether I’m close or far you’re not alone
I’ll be your support, you won’t have to face anything on your own
I can honestly say
I love the feeling of when I’m close to you, I love feeling this way
Your sincere eyes, pink lips, rosy red cheeks, and warm soft skin
Your beauty is perfection on the outside and on the inside your beautiful personality radiates deep from within

Much to our dismay sometimes we fight like the furious but
We don’t have to be a beautiful tragedy like Romeo and Juliet
Sometimes I will fail, I will **** up
But I pledge not to ever give up
We will without all the fighting preserve in love’s name
Because I will work hard for us, our love we will sustain

The stars, the moon, the sun, they are all nothing without you
When you are near you fill me up with such joy, the dark skies go from gray to blue
Your eyes light up the night sky, touching your warm soft skin
It just draws me deeper in
Closer to you
If you only knew
This beautiful feeling you provoke deep with inside of me
When I am with you time stops, my heart triple beats, and all melancholy feelings are at ease and I have no anxiety

I’m always thinking about you, it seems I try hard not to **** things up but I always do something to have you upset with me and I end up sad and empty here
I will not give up on trying to become a better version of myself or loving you because everything that we have is so pure and sincere
You know you’re always on my mind, even when we don’t speak or see each other
You’re in my heart, you’re in my soul, when you’re not near I feel you everywhere and I am happy you are my lover

When I’m with you my head is spinning like a carousel
I just love your cute red rosy cheeks and putting my nose in between your underarms, you know even without deodorant they don’t smell
I just love everything about you, and I love when I’m driving and I turn and look at you and you look at me on the side of your eye
Baby we don’t need to get anymore adrenaline from rollercoasters or Ferris wheels because when I’m with you I’m on a natural high
Every time I hear a beautiful love song I just want to sing it to you
Every time I have a beautiful thought or memory of us, I just want to tell it to you
Baby I hear and listen to everything that you say and I am aware of the things that upset you and I’m working hard to improve
When you’re always on my mind, even when we don’t speak or see each other, I’m certain it’s passion
When I’m with you or not around you this joyous amorous feeling is always lasting
I love sleeping and cuddling with you, I could lay next to you all day
My dreams are affected with thoughts of you and words you say


Baby you are the sunshine in my blue skies
I want to spoil you as my queen and sing you to sleep with lullabies
Baby just know whether I’m close or far you’re not alone
I’ll be your support, you won’t have to face anything on your own
I can honestly say
I love the feeling of when I’m close to you, I love feeling this way
Your sincere eyes, pink lips, rosy red cheeks, and warm soft skin
Your beauty is perfection on the outside and on the inside your beautiful personality radiates deep from within