We are facing dark times
even though the future may be bright
on this day the sun is hidden
behind thick clouds
with no silver lines
the rain is pouring
the thunder is roaring
and everyone is running
but have faith
for every storm passes
see there is beauty in this rain
just as there is beauty your pain
and meaning to your struggle
so when the clouds finally fade away
when the son comes out
and the lightning stops
when life is its brightest
you will find your self looking back
thankful for your darkest day.

What would you do
If you knew
I was in love with you?



Only one way to find out.

Your heart kept me warm
in this freezing tundra of life
but now your hands are chilling
your thoughts are harsh
your eyes freeze my soul
and Im left alone
in the icy darkness
fighting against this cold world
i have no one by my side
facing certain defeat
with nothing but my own body heat

I'm a hopeless romantic
Because I'm in love
And I would do absolutely anything
Absolutely anything

But there is nothint I can do
There's no hope
I'm just romantic

Black Out or Back Out

Music blowing in my ear
but temptation is all i hear

inhibitions subside and all that remains is desire
if you told me what i did last night
i would call you a liar

drink in my hand
women in my sight
i can barley stand
one hell of a night

my memory of my actions
as questionable as my actions themselves

everything is blurry
whats wrong, whats right
what did i do last night?
Im starting to worry

That line is so thin
i stumble from side to side
right and wrong
i stumble back in forth
until i swayed into a decision
that maybe i shouldnt have made

the only thing i do remember
is waking up in a place i don't remember

wake up
work

wake up
work

wake up
work

wake up
work

wake up
work

work up
wake

work up
wake

up work
wake

up wake

work

I wrote a poem today
that explained exactly how i felt
a story of emptiness
full of nothing
but possibilities and opportunities
never realized or even tried
but you might think i was crazy
If I ever asked you to read it
because you would just be staring at nothing
but a *blank page

I don't express myself
Except for here
Where i put everything
Only to fall on deaf ears
Words written on paper
That no one hears
You'll never never know
Sums up all my fears
Inside the storm rages
But its all here
Written
inside these pages

My heart is on fire
But by the look on my face
No telling how dire
My honor gone with disgrace
Content with being this liar
I hide wounds with grace
Deserving to be admired
I can't stay in this place
Relief is only a require
Nothing but empty space
This is your empire
I have nothing left to displace
No more to inspire
I can't retrace or erase
No pain in this embrace
Doest hurt,  I'm a liar
As burned skin is scraped
I make it seem as if I escaped

It's taking everything I have
Not to talk to you
Everything I have
Not to convince you
Not to explain
Because with every thing I am
I want you
But your telling me your happy
And that's more important than me
So I'll smile when you see me
So you dont feel guilty
So you cant see my pain
You don't need to know
That ever since I watched you leave
I've reached a brand new low
And It hurts just to breath
But as long as your happy
I don't want you worrying about me

I lay here on floor
Beaten and bruised
I did things i never thought i would do
Yet i lay here lost and confused
Cause i did them for you
But once again, On floor I lay
Feeling useless and used

After everything you took from me
I came back
you took my confidence
I came back
You took my dignity
I came back
You took my self self worth
Still, i came back
Because you were once who gave it all to me
Before you slowly peeled it all away
As i sat still. Stayed.

But i am not just some beaten wife
Who will contiue to give you my life
Because Im not coming back anymore
Im taking back...
How brave I was
Im taking back
How proud i was
Im taking back
How strong i was

But no matter how much i take back
I'll still never be the same as i was;
You made sure of that
But who are you?
To dictate my day to day life
Who are you?
Except the only thing im not taking back

I asked you to wait so long
To come to a place
That clearly you belong
And right in your face
I made you wait
And now I'm here, ready
But you're sad cause I'm to late?
But I'm here, ready
if your sad that I'm too late
I'm confused cause I'm here, ready
you're the one now who's decides our fate
you decide if its too late
and that makes you sad
So i ask again.
Am I too late?


Cause I'm here, ready.

These years were fun
And I must admit
I'm rather fond of the times we had
And it makes me a little sad
To say goodbye
But You dug us into this hole
That will be your grave
I must leave this life behind
But rest assured these stories will be told
And every occasion remembered
Even as I turn old
So i write on this tomb stone
As i head of into the world alone
The old me is dead and gone

I listened
As you tried to explain
How you looked at the moon
The beauty it holds the night
How it consoles you
And holds you in its light
As you stare only to know
That will never be able to go
How you felt sorry for the wolf
Cause you understood it's howl
Yearning for the moon
Wondering how life could be so foul
To put something so magical in sight
But simply out of reach
I watched you as you looked up in the sky
As the moon illuminated what was falling from your eye
You think I don't understand
But what you don't know is
I am not a man
And you are not a woman
I'm the wolf
And you're the moon

Goodbye, ciao
so long and see you later.
adios, peace, and deuces
a wave, a hug, or a kiss
so many words or even just silence
there are so many ways to say goodbye
you chose
"we can still be friends"

little do you know
the danger of those words
when they fly off your lips
more persuasive than a thousand swords
my throat pressed at the tips
with the graceful weight of 2 humming birds
as they pierce my ears
my heart starts grinding its gears
something inside that refuses to subside
pushes my pride to the side
and here appears one of my worst fears
what would happen if you realized
the power you had from inside
absolutely any task
im here standing on my knees
all you have to do is ask
others would have to twist my wrist
but for you it would come with ease
all you have to say
"come on please"

They say I'm always on the go
that money is the only thing that I know
they say I don't stop for anything
and I'm passionate about what I do
But what they don't know is that I can't stop
If I did
i wouldnt to be able to do anything
but think of you

You are the apple of my eye
My moon and my stars
And our love will never die
cause i love you to the moon and back
like you're the only girl in the world
you're the only one i see
and that's when i get weak in the knee
cause my heart skips a beat
life really isnt fair but
all is fair in love in war
and even though love is blind
it was love at first sight
You had me at hello
with you everything seems right
With you all my problems go away
i think of you all day
I don't know what else I could say
You really are...
every cliche

Hi
Good morning
or goodnight
not sure how to put it
at 3:30 am
but I'm thinking bout you
and I hope that's cool
cause i feel like i just made myself a fool
but i dont regret anything i do
just know
If I'm a fool
Its cause i'm a fool for you

I just want more
Not a lot
Just more than  nothing.

They say dont judge a book by its cover
But a beauty like you
Must have a story or two
With eyes as deep as the sea
Theres so much they dont see
As i explore your world
Swim through your pages
And find all your secrets
Please pardon my touch
For I may leave a few creases,

Cause i dont just want to know your story
I want to be a part of it

The day seemed like any other
i thought everything was the same
until you came and passed bye without saying hi
so i walked up to you
and looked you right in the eye
but i was apalled by what i saw
because there was nothing there
like you couldn't see me or didnt even care
so i pressed my lips against your's
expecting us to still be a pair
but you didn't feel a thing
and i felt this heart renching pain
as you walked through my body
like I didn't exist
i watched as you walked away
thinking of what to say
as you walked over to him
i started to scream
i yelled everything that i thought would make you stay
i gave it my all
but you to didn't even twitch
like you couldn't hear my heartfelt call
yelling from the middle of the room
suprised that no one else seemed to notice
i was suddenly forced to face my doom
as i looked back to you with him
i noticed the world was a little dim
right when i saw you kiss
it was at that moment
that i was able to see the truth
see, I didnt even know
but i was a ghost
and i had died long ago

Im scared to move on
see i can live with this pain
im rather use to this rain
i have always been a hopeless romantic
doing things that don't make sense
like holding on to something that's already gone
but i am so wrong
to be scared to move on
Cause really it's just I don't like giving up
If I think there even a small chance
Like a special circumstance
see im not scared of letting go, getting hurt,
or being alone
im scared of the fact that you could come back
to find me in place that i no longer call home
and im worried i'll miss out on an opportunity
for you to fall back in love with me

No one has ever given you a chance
They don't see you
they just don't know
how big your heart is
how funny your laugh is
how wide your smile is
or how wild your nights could be
instead they just walk by
and you think you will never have someone
who will call you his


but I see more beauty in you
than the prettiest model in the world
its as if i'm the only one with this luxury
this special ability to see all the beauty
Of the Invisible Girl.

As everyone passes you by
like your not even there
screaming silently so no one seems to hear
hiding all your fears and transparent tears
you wonder if anyone even cares
about all the things you've never shared
you wonder if anyone will ever see everything you are
you asked "am i invisible?"

*no, the world is blind

I wrote you a message
even put it a text
with your name as the recipient
telling you everything I said and did
And what it really meant
but it's just another message
that will never be sent

Things come and go
So is the flow of time
What used to belong to me
Is no longer mine
But i can see in your eyes
You look at me same
would you believe if i told you
The only thing that remains
Of the the person you think i am
Is my name?
I think not
Its nothing i need to prove
But i do wish you could see
How different I am than me

I'm really tired of being the bigger man
I hope you respect everything that I am
Cause I'm giving up on you
So you can be happy too
And I mean that to both you two
Cause at first you said it was casual
but now if we are being factual
It's quite the opposite
And that's why I letting go of it
So I hope you can think this is a little sappy
But really I just hope you both are happy





But down below all of this
I still feel a little ******

Everyone is here for the party
but when it comes time for the holidays
no one stays
they are all at their real home
and I'm left at home alone

The world is a cold and cruel place
The clouds are dark
life pushes burning wind against your face
and freezing rain falls day after day
there may be no end in sight
but you can find warmth and cover
in the soul of another

I was in the perfect position
everything was in place
then my pulse started to race
and i made a terrible decision
while in a liquid induced trance
that cost me my one and only chance

I did something foolish
she's as beautiful as a fresh bloomed flower
so i told her i wanted more
i gave her my doomed power

so now she wants me no more
the mystery that surrounded me has vanished
any rising feelings for me banished
her past is her fear and her heart is soar

the worst part....
these words that escaped the cage of my heart
through the trap door underneath my tongue
the same ones the threw water upon the embers
of a fire that could have outlasted time its self
came from a night
i don't even remember

This smile hurts to keep
Fighting the urge to weep
The cracks in my face
So obvious the smile is fake
When my eyes look like mace
But what else am I suppose to say
When someone asks
Are you okay?

I thought you were like me
I thought you understood
I thought i could talk free
I thought i could confide
I thought you would respect me
I thought you would know how i am
I thought you would believe me
I thought not the rumors
always thought this world was full of humors
see i heard from a bird
that you were the source of the word
so after
I thought i found you after so long
it seems
i thought wrong

I'm drunk
And that's the only time I speak your name
When everyone else is gone
Your the one I want by my side
But when I wake in the morning
It will have just been another night.

I didn't want you for myself
Until I saw you with someone else
But what kind of man would I be
If I didn't leave you be
And atleast let you be happy

Goodbye to everything
I thought we would be
Goodbye to everything
I thought we were gonna do
Now don't me mistaken
cause I'm not saying goodbye to you
for you will always be part of my heart
So this is just goodbye
to part of me

My heart is a puzzle.

It's missing a few pieces.

I want you more than anything
and to get you i would do everything
but the best thing i can do
is the hardest thing to do

nothing

the difference between
first and last
the future or the past

the difference between
a prince or a king
a fling or a ring

the difference is timing

and timing is everything

There was a wall of glass
Standing between me and you
You could see me on other side
So you let go of your pride
And sliced your heart
On every shattered sliver of glass
As you broke your barrier apart
But the deepest cut
Came when you had to pick it up

look i like you
dont act like you dont know
just cause i never said it doesnt mean it doesn't show
cause yes you and i both know
but none of that matters if your answer is no
so tell me the truth
right here
right now
if you want me im here
if not

then let me go

Get the **** out off my mind
Seriously I'm so done with wanting you
I don't want this yearning
I'm tired of my stomach churning
I run away when I see you
Is that not enough of a clue
But you're always ******* there
No mater where I go
Theres no escape
No matter where I go
I can't you get you out my head
No place is safe
Not even my own ******* bed
Because even there when I'm trying to sleep
You torment me in my dreams
I wake up in screams
Can't you just leave me alone
Or atleast not be there the next time I come home
Go, get out,
LEAVE

I came in and sat at your bar
did i take it too far
did i get too real
by telling you how i feel
while having my meal
maybe i used the wrong words
or do you think i was drunk
cause there is no amount
of bourbon and coke
that can make what i said a joke
"i want you to be mine"
i meant that
and im not taking it back

Hey how are you?
Look, please pardon my behavior as of latley
But I came to ask a favor
I know it's been a while
So Sorry if this seems a little weird
But from the beginning this is what I feared
You see the thing is
I'm still stuck on you
So if you would do this favor
That would make you my doom
and my savior
Just tell me it's over between me an you
that you don't have feelings for me too
Cause my brain knows it's true
But my heart can't tell it apart
From a passing moment
Or a future that was heaven sent
Please just say it out loud
So my heart can face the music
So it can let go of these feelings that are now useless
Cause really these thoughts are ruthless
So please lay my hopes to ease
Just do me this one small kindness
it's the least you could do
atleast tell me its over
So I can atleast have some closure

I wish you could see
Exactly how I feel
it may seem confusing
Like I'm not real
But your the last thing I want to be losing
These are the only feelings I've had
In a very long time
But I take things so slow
It's not fair to ask you to wait
And it kills me to know
That it's now too late

I no longer believe in fate
In destiny
Or anything pre ordained
Because if such a thing existed
If anything was ever meant to be
You would have been meant for me

I can't go back
To how we were
Maybe back to our first kiss
But no way in hell
Can I go back to anything before

I hate it when my phone goes off
Because every time I hear that noise
A small part of me
Hopes it's you

I woke up this morning
After weeks of letting it go
I woke up in mourning
After weeks I havnt let it go
"Does it even matter?"
To me yes
To you no