"a victim never forgets."
if you think you've forgotten, you're wrong.
the memory will come flooding back when you least expect it.
it will be excruciating.
everything will remind you of it.
every touch, every voice, every hushed sob.
their name will send shivers down your spine.
you will wonder,
"how can people act so calm around them?"
you will start to wonder if it even was that bad and if it even happened. they don't understand why you hate them.
you will take a look at the bruise they left and press down on it, a reminder of a fraction of the pain you feel.
after years, it will be less prevalent. the bruise fades, along with your connection to them.
you will still get a jolt of painful reminders every now and again.
you will learn how to control them.
how to push them to the back of your mind.
isn't controlling what they did?
you will slowly start to wonder if you're becoming as bad as them.
the thought will echo in your mind, mocking you tortuously.
"you're just as bad as them."
you can never escape, never forget.