remember that when
your wavering soul
catches fire
for the second
or hundredth
time

when you call on me
once more
misery boiling over
a cascade of every
decision, you
never made

i will not be there
you are alone

You messed up my heart,
and yet when I look at it,
it's such a beautiful mess.

am I the love of your life
or am I one that qualifies
for your love in this life?

You haunt me in my dreams
and you’re always in them
rejecting me
and i’m there loving you
harder and harder
like I always have been

I don't miss you, and that scary

you love me
like I loved him,
and he loved me
... never.