My dearest friends
For whom I care so much
And all my gentle lovers
Of whom I wish to touch

I must take this time
On a wasted past
A glass stands empty
A rope held fast

I'm sick of all the wanting, waiting
Of this life,its frustrating
Thoughts of death,self masticating
Emotions I shall be castrating

Have no form of self worth
To myself I am furth
Where is choice to unbirth?
Leave behind wretched earth

Twelve sentences
Thats my whole day
But **** it I'll settle any way
Clinging onto words you say
Its not much
Like the minimal touch
Double dutch
Press down like a clutch
Switch gear
I'm hear
But you're gone
So long
I was wrong

...you know I lay there thinking of your ****
And you know on ****** my throat you slash
If I don't die you know I'm gonna dash

Step out the door bludgeon an **** to death
Strangle a *****,leave her short of breath
Rub my face in Luke warm breast
If she says "Thankyou" she can be my guest

I'll **** every ******* fitty I see
Gotta let that deep wound ******* be
Asking as I got a ******* hottie on me
This is how I define being free

Drown me with you ******* ***
I wanna add more of you for hours for a final sum
Until my **** is numb
And when we're done polish off the ******* ***

Bang the bottle up you ***
I knew you wernt ready *****,you chatting pure gas
An alright looking lass
But between you and the rest,time'll pass

Blame me mum
All the tings that ive done
I come
And from next chick I run

I don't want to be the the man in a heavy state
Irate
Drop the beat I'm a reprobate
I escape

I'm got myself together
I'm clever
No matter the weather
Whatetever

Instead of me
I'll do another girl
Its for free
I'll leave my body furled

I'm not ready to die yet
Mind set
Mind ***
I'm vext

But I'll die soon
I'm a loon
A cartoon
Its to soon,boom

Let's have a child in this crazy ****** up world.
Before its born we can ultra sound it and deform the growing organs.
As soon as its here let's pump it full of toxins and feed it genetically modified milk.
Plant the little one in front of the idiot box and help start the programming because we all know you need to be a good slave.
When they reach the acquired age we can dump them into a system of indoctrination, under the guise of education,that if honest is anything but.
"Why do we need to learn this?"
"Because if you don't you won't be successful"
Ergo,material wealth equates to happiness?
Being forced into regiment and to respect someone who claims authority are not noble traits and are the actions of a coward,nothing more than making you a slave to a corrupt governing body of genocide enthusiasts and pedophiles.
How about we fully remove all morals from society and decend further into hell?! Oh,wait,we already are!
Working jobs we hate to buy **** we don't need to impress people we don't like.
Living to work and working to live.
You want to know why I cant stand to live?! Its because even in life we are dead!
**** this false reality,**** it all!

Every morning he loads a single bullet into his revolver,
He spins the chamber and places the barrel to his skull,
Pulling the hammer back and pulling the trigger in symbiosis.
CLICK
Another day survived.
Some days he isn't so lucky.
BANG
As she fires wrath and rage,his revolver belittles his integrity,he struggles to maintain his cool and leaves.
We tell him playing Russian roulette with a loose cannon is dangerous.
He replies "I love her"
We relate to this vested interest in the notion of affection versus considerable loss of self and wish him luck.

Gimmie a thick ****
With a big ****
So I can nut
Before the deep cut

A pound of draw
Word I saw
Kick her out the door
Ain't seein' her no more

Drop that cold hard lyric
**** I give,call me a synic
I'm in it to win it
So gimmie a minute

Its not an apathetic mind state
I'm irate
Outlaw,land pirate
I'll drink a ******* crate

While I mastabate
During a mass debate
Over the fate
Of mans *******,but wait...

Check the chick tied to the bed
She give good head
But when I said
I'd rather be dead

Her jaw dropped all irrational
She needs to liven up,I'm a cannibal
I'm a fan of all
Each creature with a mandible

Strip flesh clean down to the bone
I'll leave your family alone
Cos they clean out my zone
I won't atone

For the thing I do next
Mandem is vext
When I don't get back text
left feeling perplexed

The man stands staring at his reflection atop a body of water,
Picking,poking trying to change what he thinks he aught't.
He leans in closer and closer still,
Vanity desperate to get its fill.
For a moment time stops and he falls in,
Drowning in vanity he cannot win.
Masses of proverbial fluid fill each lung,
At this moment he realises what he's done.
He thought more about self and less about others,
Learn from him,take the time to be with sisters and brothers.
When you have gone to where you cannot return,
Know it didn't matter how you saw yourself but how others saw you & it'll burn.

Permeate the impermeable
Set your goals,smash them all
Run your race and if you fall
Get back up and stand tall

Last night I had a dream
That doesn't constitute nightmare
Mostly minor inconveniences
Most of which unfair
An old teacher ****** on me
While drunk
Fist fight with a cousin
Who would have thunk
A friend broke a leg
Full compound fracture
And he wrote a complaint to the creator
About flawed manufacture
I wore a suit
To be appear egg well hatched
But all the shades of purple
Were thoroughly mismatched
Although very minor
It was a great discomfort
Hopefully to nights dream is finer
But I'll probably dream that I'm sunburnt

Of all the words I could describe right now
Only one comes to mind
And you might find
That these feelings haven't defined
Quite what I want to say
"Oh hey'
"Stay away"
I'm slack take me back
But
Just for a second
I becond
I want you here and near
And dear
But

****

**** does it hurt
To see you in pain
Again
And I've Slane
In vane
Its insane

****

Its not just an action
But a feeling
Like the guy that's dealing
Ripped off
Torn short
For sport of your own game
And I'm to blame

Isn't it strange,how after the fact so many people will say how they miss a person they they had no time for in their lifetime.

Isn't it strange how some terminal things such as marriage are celebrated but others such as alcoholism are scorned.

Isn't it strange how acts of emotion such as kindness are reward,where an equal amount of anger is abhorrent.

Isn't it strange how we can talk to a few people but a stranger is awkward.

Isn't it strange how we congratulate lives beginning but mourn the deaths.

Isn't it strange that we have a complex system of sounds to symbolise emotions we hardly understand.

Isn't it strange that we keep animals that see us as no more than squawking chimps as pets and become emotionally invested in them even though they see us as no more than food bearers.

Isn't it strange that we poison ourselves and say its fun but living healthily is seen as a chore.

Isn't it strange how much we try to connect yet still stand apart.

Life is indeed strange,and people are stranger.

Tiny serrated knife
Taking the stress from my life

You need no thanks for what you can do
You rip,tear and get me through

You help me cry without tears
You comfort me through all my fears

You are my best friend
Purpose pure,let's not pretend

You give me another option you know
As you move through me to and fro

Please don't ever go
In fact let's make the next one slow

I press hard,just to get close.
For one night would you **** me harder than life has?
Leave me a bruised and shaking mess?
Wrap your hands around my throat,make me choke,like all the time I spend inhaling cigarette smoke and dope.
Erase all the shadows and doubt in my mind,be kind and help me escape the hell that I've made for myself.
I want to remember what forgetting feels like.
I want you breathing heavy and making me feel like I'm enough and not just some passing phase.I know you dig pierced and tattooed skinny white guys,but you'll change your mind when you see what I hide inside.
So tonight,**** me until I forget,
Help me escape.
Just for one night.

Sometimes I wonder why its so nice to have a chick sit on my face
Then again it maybe because my ever moving tounge has found its rightful place
I don't have to say a word but I'm still granted grace
And for your information,yes,I do like lace

Sick skillin'
Like a villain
Inkin like a saint
For the ***** I be fillin'
My style you just can't taint
I'll tear out ya tibia
Ya fibia
I'm sick of ya
I'll leave you lying ****** muddy
In the streets of lybia
Hungry mother *******
have no trouble getting rid of ya
And if your country had of loved you
Then they would of hidden ya
Before I had a son
I woulda grabbed a gun
Put it to my head
And chased myself to the other side of a darker place
But then I see his face
Reminds that I gotta be a member of the human race
And to find my place
Keep him right so he don't fall from grace

Black eyes
Lose ties
I dispise
My demise

Its high time
That I mime
That I'm fine
While I'm dying

I won't leave you there
Bare
Pulling out hair
With a cold stare

So I'll say
For today I'll stay
I'll play
You can have it your way

One sheep
Two sheep
Black and blue sheep
And a new sheep

Won't hop the gate
Its to late
To evaluate
They tell me to "******* mate"

Even the imaginations seem upset
And I get
That I'm keeping them awake too
But I don't know what else to do

Try to make friend
Instant end
God I'm ******* stupid
Like lupin
I just wanted to talk
But friendship I calk
Like a bottle of wine
Be so bad if it was between the line
And they fine
But its okay
I tried to help and say
That they should stay
Take life another way
"Its okay"

I hear that some have disposable income
Well it turns out my love is disposable
So where is the staple for them
I ask?

Love is short
Tastes so sweet
To the tounge tourte
But you will eat

It touches lips
And rush an osphagus
Laidies think of hips
While men want them on top of us.

Five past five
Still awake
Still alive
Mind like a busy hive

Buzzing thought
Still,I ought
Not to get caught
Short...

...of this
"Please miss?"
"A kiss?"
Snakes hiss

Slither away
Another day
Or should I say
I just don't want to play

If you love it
Know that it'll wear you down
If it's one sided
It'll leave you face painted like a clown
If breaks your heart
Cry a river in which you drown
No matter what it is
It always comes under class of,noun

Undoubtedly confusions offer a knack for drawing out character flaws.
The world pushes the unfaithful,even today,through a revival of confusions.
Utterly drunken,haplessly amused,but not an easy ride.
I felt both uncomfortable and comedic,one dimensional clowns.
The poor souls,in no small part.
Each interconnected.

One arm under girlfriend one against the wall
Only light from window covered it was abismal
Then three demons leered over reaching across bed
Fear clean ****** out of me,not one word was said
As I break up panting, girl growls at me
I thought to my self why can't they let me be
Why does this happen,oh for **** sake
Looks like for a little while I'll be awake
She rolls over, I close my eyes
Think of something like cats being wise
Then she starts to murmer "are we recording?" as if I'm not there
I wake and ask what she means,I just want her to know that I care
We have a giggle before I write this verse
Because when I sleep in the dark I have a curse

Cut still beating heart from chest
Press hard break breast
Twisted spine,emotion pine,"I'm fine" I'm lying.
Crushing bones of cadavers love,black mist of decay
**** me,**** me,**** me
Oh wait you did,reanimated corpse,staggers through world of gray,carrion picked to the last by vultures of memories that I cannot leave behind.
Dwindling soul,abandoned hope,jump ship,awash in a sea of misery.
Just drown,just drown
Sinks down,sinks down
Deeper into the black,the sharks eat their fill,I lay still.
For all the pain not a sound apart from that of broken dreams,shattering against the words " its over".

You have no idea,
How much it ******* hurt.
Breaking me I understand,
But our son?you treat like dirt.
You pass him off,
Like he never mattered.
Don't you know his emotions,
will end up raw and scattered?!
How can you do that,
To a one year old kid.
I'm the one to blame,
There's nothing that he did.
People like you,
Are the reason I can't trust.
The things you say you love,
Worth as much as dust.
U want to know why,
I do the things I do?
Because I'm terrified,
That everyone is like you.
You prey on the weak,
With sociopathic pride.
At least I can admit my flaws,
Because I don't need to hide.
I hope our lad grows up,
To see that I love him.
The only resemblance to you?
Athsetic in the skin.
There's no such thing as perfect,
Nor will there ever be.
But you'd come pretty close my dear,
Swinging from a tree.
I couldn't let you do it though,
I will tell you why.
Loss of parent bad or good,
Would make him want to die.
He'll always need his mother,
And see the good in you.
So straighten up and pull it out,
Give him something to look up to.

Be careful when you use the term "my mate"
As you could be left in an irate mind state
Time to take control of my fate
Easy enough to cut off,so why wait?!

You can say that I'm a wasteman
But I don't work a 40 hour week just to get a spray tan
Get out my face fam
Before I bust you in the grill and break your ******* ray bans

I'd like to say a few things
Like how'd you like my new wings
I can tie my shoe strings
And I've had a few flings

Yeah, I met this real nice girl
I think she's my ideal world
For all the times I have hurled
I end up in a state messed,body real furled

But she can make it all good
Lord knows I wish that I could
No idea what I should
So I end up spilling blood

It could be fine,okay
A few words,if I may
Something I have to say
I couldn't leave her,no way

She loves me on a level
More than the devil
In my suffering she doesn't revel
She is something special

The river was,afraid you see
That it wasn't destined for the sea
So the sea replied wittingly
"I am you,and you are me."

I'll just sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
Self hate
Inebriate
But mostly sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
Am i antiquate?
I estimate
But mostly sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
I hesitate
And instigate
But mostly I sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
Self isolate
And moderate
But mostly sit and wait

Falling backwards
Through the back woods
An atlas
Doesn't matter
When you're lost and shattered

Fight my demons for another day
I didn't want to be happy anyway
Alcoholism and thirst to slay
Is there anything I can do to make you stay?

I'm my own ******* nemesis
Trying to find relevance
Nothing makes any sense
Life of codependence

Nothing but nightmares in a dream
Nothing what it seem
Staring at a screen
What is a human bein'?

I have spent some time now
Learning to read expression
Never knew how to take emotion
It caused such great depression

You see I'm not quite normal
High functioning,abstract,weird
I think I have said too much
As I twist more knots into my beard

Its odd being on the outside
When others seem so social
I don't know why I voice my flaws
Must be the liberation of being vocal

The thought of fathering another life
Has got me smiling
I know the impending strife
Mother of first child will be whiling

I mean if I can't buy a pack of cards
Without being told I have to pay her tax and rent
I know she'll go full hulk
In an angry rageful vent

Just a few moments
One vast change
I could not dodge the bullet
At close range
Just move forward
Begin to rearrange
Now its different
Ain't life strange?

Adjust my sails
To new winds course
Move past fails
As to avoid remorse
New path avails
Become positive force
What has been pales
In new light source

I wrote a poem in my dream
I was so happy with it
But apon leaving the asteral realm
I lost it

I'm under so much stress
They wouldn't second guess
No matter how good I dress
That I'm still a ******* mess

My mind seems quite disbard
Emotional ******
But 20 plus roses
Get a free card

And..maybe a note to say
"I love you"
Well *******
Well who knew?

I'm slowly losing my mind
Hit pause,
Break for a second
Rewind...
...I'm fine

But I'm not though
I wanna stop bro
Thoughts so hot? No
I've got to go.

Repressing the feeling
Its not so appealing
That I'm still hear breathing
This life is deceiving

Yeah I'm a state...
I'm irate...
Self masticate..
With four tinnies like a reprobate.

So who am I now?
Will I figure it out?
Will it all just be doubt?
Deep though,sat with a pout.

**I'm out

There was an old man with a cat
It slept inside of his hat
He went one day and to his dismay
He found his head was covered in skat