Nearly married a few times;
more luck than judgement.

Truth is;

I would have made a terrible
husband.

smoking two cigarettes at once
can save an awful lot of time.

When life screws you this hard
are you supposed to
     scream?
     Or sigh?
Or just shut up and enjoy
     the ride?

He used to fly around me
    but he should've known
it is the kingdom of my fears
even the birds get lost in here

Lonely, like the ancient ocean
flooding fast upon the sand

past a fading line of footprints,
ankle deep in surf she stands

casting wishes on the water
like a sprinkling of snow,

light they land but moments after,
melt into the waves, and go..

This latent calculus of isolation
I rue the very hour of human -
participation , choosing to smear my body
with the very mud of creation
Forever more* ..