Sara Leal

Jan 2018

Meaby Pom

Trifling

I will love for life
But refuse to live for love.
The idea of needing someone
This thought is trife.
The idea of dying alone
It's far from in love.
Confusion of my worth
Do I deserve a family, a wife?
I said it once and I'll say it again
This notion is trife.
Clarity will confront you
Just stop staring at the lights.

No structure is the best kind of structure

Jan 2018

ilina286

Untitled

The first time I opened my mouth
I told the world about you
Ethernal silence disturbed by your name

Sara Leal Jan 2018

The dolls inside of me

They.
Them.
They are here.
And everything is because of them.
They control everything and anything.
The reason is from them.
They hurt you,
If you try to hurt me.
They hurt me,
If I try to hurt you.
The dolls inside of me love you,
But they hate you.
D o l l s.
They live inside of me,
And get out whenever they want to.
Sooner or later they always come back,
Because I am my dolls,
And they are me.
Do what they tell you to.
Only them can control what is ours.
Live with the thought that you can't escape.
Lie like you believe me.
So you can answer me like you mean it.

Now, do you know my dolls?
*And where are yours?

English version. Hope you enjoy it like I did writing it.

#dolls #me #you #pain #control

Sara Leal Dec 2017

I want to die

I want to die.
But not in that way you just lose everything you have now.

I want to die.
But not in that way you go to a better place afterwards.

I want to die.
But not in that way you stop feeling all the pain.

I want to die.
In a way that death takes my pain away, but only for some hours or minutes, so I can rest a little bit from it.

Because after all, we all have to suffer someday, for some time.
But no one told me I couldn't take a rest from it.
So why shouldn't I?

That's why,
I want to die.

English version. I hope you like it. I thought of this when some important people decided to hurt me, and I realized that this is just a moment and that everything is going to be fine if I believe in that.

#death #me #depression

Sara Leal Apr 2016

Something

I try to be just something, but I never get it.
I never get that thought,
That right thing,
That bad thing,
That I have no idea of what it is.
I can never catch that moment,
When you hold my hand like there's no tomorrow,
Like I'm unique,
Special.
I can never appreciate you like I know you deserve.
I can never love you less.
I can never stop of feeling alive with you.
I can never not want you.
It's your fault,
I know it is.
And even with all this I never get it,
I can't be just something,
Because you make me feel much more than that.
You make me feel like someone,
Someone that exists.

English version

#you