I guess it wasnt meant to happen
I should have known all along..
What my ears thought was harmony..
Was two very different songs..

I was lost inside the harmony
By the spell in tune you sing..
I was soaring through the heavens..
When you ripped off my wings.

My father
Who art in new York
Hallowed and most likely drunk
My car broke down
My gas tank empty
In new York as it is at home
Give me this day
My daily ration
Of distaste and dismay
Forgive me for my ignorance
As I forgive those as ignorant as you
Lead me away not in the ways of you
Deliver me from seed

Break me down, watch me burn
Light the fire, make me learn

Ive been bad, I can't fake it
Its gunna hurt, but I can take it

Sew my eyes shut, cut out my tounge
Bind my legs, so I can't run

Heart's still beating, not sure why
Hanging by a thread, why can't I die?

Tunnel vision sets, a white light.. no..
I'm falling through hell
With a long way to go.

We have went different ways
A long, long time ago
Many moons have passed over us
Each one seems to slow

The crickets used to chirp
In the damp, and brisk night air
Now soft weeping, deep breathing
Is all there is to hear

Music used to sooth us
We listened tangled on the bed
Now the notes match the rhythm
But the songs are dead

Instruments collect dust
In the corner on their stand
So close is the Tranquility
But peace is a foreign land

We watched the tear drops form..
On the windows of our cell
Now alone with not but brokenness
You left me in this hell.

Shadow on the wall tell me can you feel?
am I your imagination do you know Im real?
are we in other worlds connected at the spine?
Can you see me as me or am I just wasting time?
do you share my heart? or maybe my thoughts?
Are you reason for the darkness that my life has brought?
Do you crack a smirk when the sun comes out to play?
Maybe use some trickery cuz I wouldn't know.anyway?
does the way you lay down behind me show what my life is worth?
a silhouette on the ground in all the bugs and dirt?
when I go to sleep do you say a prayer?
do you show praise in demons tounge I can hear from over there?
do you walk around my room playing cynical games?
poking proding me in my sleep dig into my brain?
If you are just inanimate.. have nothing to do with me..
Then tell me why I look into the mirror and its your face I see..

Just open your eyes
You will surely see
All that I would sacrifice
If youd come back to me
I know the worlds big
Full of possibilities
But its easy to lose the forest
While your gazing at the trees.

Forget the past
To find the present..

Neglect the present
Lose the future

Mistakes in past
Regret in present

And only misery
Is in your future.

When we come face to face
I'm mumble mouthed for sure
From all the broken memories
Laying in pieces on the floor

When you draw your excuses
I still cannot point the blame
In the end it's all my fault
Every ounce of pain

I look you in the eyes
And..my words seem to falter
You cry for my forgiveness
But that cannot be altered

I counted days alone
I spent cleaning out my conscious
Now you blow in wrecklessly
And all I feel is nausious

I can see the hurt
You truly do regret..
But that is not enough
To ever make me forget

The way you chose to end it
Threw my heart on the floor
Laughed and prodded my emotions
Until I couldn't take it anymore

It took me to move
A thousand miles away
So I could finally escape
These awful games you play

So please do me a favor
Hear the words I speak
For they are far more kind
Than the ones you left for me..

You'll always be in my heart
My first everything was you
You have my forgiveness
But we cannot start anew

I'll love you forever
But your love is not true
Today's the day you love me..
And the day I cannot love you.

Found out your pregnant again
I hope your well and happy
Hopefully not with another
Dead beat baby daddy.

The sun is setting and darkness coming
And once again I find myself running
For with the night comes the changing
In my head its always raining

I can run, but can never hide
Only light keeps at bay the demon inside
Without the warmth I become only numb
Abandon all hope as I come undone

Claw at my skin until its blood red
Cocked and loaded barrel to the head
Memories flash as reality flickers
I can end it all if I just pull the trigger

Alone in my nothingness nobody would care
My peripheral vision now drowning in tears
Day breaks the gloom.. Warmth starts to spread
And I am alone, on the floor dead.

Don't pity my life, nor my pain
Don't **** on my back..
And tell me it's rain.

Eyes closed, reality fades
Drifting into memories
Reliving life.. Decisions made
Knowing they can never change

Reaching out to touch her face
The one sure thing.. You cant replace
..Night progresses slow and cold
Lucid dreams feel so alone

When she consumes and devours
Your sanity more every hour
Minutes pass all turns sour
Try to wake but lack the power

Color fades losing control..
Am I still dreaming? F#ck I dont know

The only thing worse
Than being alone
Is being alone together.

What happened to the time
When love was
Always and forever..

My blood pressure rises
With each reciprocating motion
Her perfect body makes
As she draws back the bow
To fire the arrow
Of me.

A flower so beautiful
Yet so brittle
A rare possibility.
Growing spontaneously
In a garden of engenuity
Where everything is
So complex..
Each new bloom
Is more diverse
Than next
The garden now seen..
From a place
Where everything
Is exaclty the same..
Where the rose
Is suspected
As just a flower
With the ability
Of love
No sense of devour
And as ignorant
As those
As the "ability"
To judge..
Love
As a meaningless..
Possibility
Than those who see..
Only a garden of snakes..
Will never dine
In the peasants inn
Of heritage and courage
Because he who sees
Only a flower
As a plant..
Is as ignorant as..
Those self dignified
To sign loans and
Grants..
What if the flower
Is more than we see
What if trapped inside
The mind of a person..
Not recognized
By society..
The flower is more
Than we can identify...
Just don't forget..
Your opinion..
Can brittlize..
The fragments of
What's left of it..
Because in the end...
Even love
Calls quits

Coursing through my veins
Like venom after bite
Slowly becoming paralyzed
Fighting for my life
Choking on my *****
Vision black as night
Pulse about to flat line
Thats what your love is like.

I used to think
I was on top of the world
But it turns out
The view is similar
From the bottom of
A bottle.

I walk through life alone
Absent emotion
Face set like a stone
Through the dark I roam
Where I lay my head
Is where I call home
Could be here or could be there
Don't ask me to tell
Because I'm not sure where
My eyes a permanent stare
Cut me stab me I assure
You I don't care
I've been there before
Its no suprise when
Hurt beats down my door
Sure I can't take much more
But I'm alive and as so
I endure
Don't you look down on me
Sure I'm a ****** mess
In my blue jeans
Dont like it then don't look at me
I walk alone down this
Lightless street
The world's a barren place
And on every tree I
Still see her face
You don't know how bad that tastes
I laugh and smile
But hide my empty state.

The trials I've been facin'
Nothin' like the dreams I'm chasin'
Traveled round the continent
Memories of time I've wasted

Seems like of all the places
All the drugs and girls tasted
I'd find peace in sobriety
But all I've ever been is wasted

Now I look in the mirror..
And oh my god I hear her
Screamin' callin' out my name
I hit the glass.. cuz I can't be near her

The blame the fault is mine
For all the borrowed misused time
I shake I sweat I try to sleep
Ive dug myself in deep this time

I wish I could forget
I try to pray away regret
God ignores my pleas for help
Because I've cried wolf before I bet..

Time is passin' I'm no younger
In life there is so much to plunder
I look ahead to brighter days
But all the forecast calls for thunder

I think it's time I stop tryin'
Wastin' precious breath from cryin'
Paint on a smile, pretend I'm fine
So no one will see inside I'm dyin'

Open my eyes,
No more being blind
Time to accept my hand
Its taken enough time.

Open my ears
No more being deaf
No more fighting a pointless war
Ill leave with a few medals
pinned upon my chest

Time to say the words
I never thought Id say
So long, farewell, goodbye
Like you'd care anyway..

I feel in my heart
Im a good man, I deserve better
I hope you think of me
And leave tears on my letters

I've never said a mean word to you
So I won't start it at the end.
Just remember you lost a faithful lover
Remember you lost a loyal friend.

One day your gonna miss me
and all my corny rhymes
But by then ill be healed
And had found a woman worth my time.

Don't cry for me
You left me
I don't need your winds
Of pity
To set sail
On this sea
I propell
Soley on misery.