thoughts are like
the tears you
have been holding in
all day or all week
or all month
once they start
they are so hard to stop
no matter how hard
you try to make them
stop and go away
and you never wanted
them to start
and they hurt so much
and they **** you
and make you
question your life
and if it's worth it
or if you should give up
on everything
because
those thoughts
and those tears
have been held in
forever
and now they are
tumbling out
of the dam they
were being held behind
and it's killing me slowly

J, I've seen what
you have been
writing lately
I know you say
nothing is wrong
and that you are
alright but I feel
and I know something
is wrong you aren't the
same as you were like
a month ago you seem
different and it might
just be me and I might
just be seeing problems
and issues were there
aren't any but you have
changed you don't seem
as energized and you seem
like life is being drained from
your mind and your body
and well I know I might not
be able to help and I know
it's not my business or job
to make sure you are okay
or to help you but just know
I know I'm here to help and
I want to help and I am here
if you just want to talk even
if it isn't about the problem
if you want I can distract you
but I have see what you
have been writing lately
and I have seen how you
have been acting lately
many people may not
but I do I see it and
I just want to say
I love you and
I care about you so much
and you are not alone
please don't ever
ever forget that

These eyes have seen trouble and seen pain.
Having gone looking for someone to blame.
Even though I can't blame anyone but myself.
So I need to take my shettered soul off the shelf.
Ending all the shame and disgrace I place upon me.
Every chance that passed me by to set my soul free.
Yearning for the contenment when I'm down and blue.
Everything happens for a reason and that is true.
So I just want you to know these eyes bleed for you.

If my heart was a cup,
Your love would be the deep blue sea.
You fill me up like wild rivers overflowing.
With springs of Living Water flowing within me.
Flowing within me.
Flowing within me.
Until I am completely lost in Your love.
Overfilling my cup.
Your love like the deep blue sea.
Completely overtaking me.

words escape my lips
      before i can restrain them

they are brutal murderers
      cold and unforgiving

i wonder if i'll get a life sentence
      for the things i have said

is there is a possibility of parole?
      or simply a life behind bars?

my own danger shocks me
      rattles me to the core

i never knew i could be capable of such things
      never knew i could say that to someone i loved so dearly

but the words are gone
      drifting in the breeze

constantly searching until they reach
      the ears of the person they will hurt most