if i said "i love you"
nearly as much
as i said "i'm sorry"
maybe we could've been something.

I wish we would go stargazing
so you could see constellations,
while I admire the one right next to me

you were a virus,
polluting my mind and veins,
and I'm the fool that trusted you
now I left digging deeper and deeper into my skin
just trying to get every single piece out of my system before it kills me

Forgive and forget
forgive and forget
forgive and forget!
I can't
I can't forgive, I can't forget
Yet I can barely remember
How it felt to be happy
Before meeting you

my mind is a jukebox
playing music on repeat
for an audience of one
and for free
some days it's a new song
other days it's a commercial jingle
but
most days it's your laugh

i hate that i can't control my emotions when it comes to you
i hate that the thought of you beings tears to my eyes
but still makes my heart beat faster
i hate that your smile makes everything else fade to gray
i hate that loving you is so much more painful than it should be

it's been months
and I'm still not sure
if you were worst thing or
the best thing
that ever happened to me