Some days I wonder why I even try..
Feel  like I'm just stalled
my feet spinning in place
digging my own grave.

I succumb to the shark inside me, tearing me apart
piece by piece..bleeding me dry.
My hormones are messing with my thoughts,
making things seem so much more foggy..
i know that nothings wrong but that feeling
keeps coming back into my mind..WHAT IF??

What if he changed his mind?
What if he doesn't want this anymore?
What if its me??
i must fight these thought before they wreck
my mind and heart..before the walls
build back up and im trapped in the darkness again.

Ive come to far to let the bad thoughts find
their old home in my thoughts..never again!!
people always talk about how everyone
is messing with their heads, but my insecurities
are my biggest demon..

Struggles, your and mine,
are different but the same..
MONEY
         JOBS
    BILLS
        DEBT..
Learning that its not what struggles you have,
But how you come out of them that matters..