I tire of this twisted game
where everything remains unchanged
With all I do just to get through to you

All the things you used to say
that your actions did not portray
and like a fool, I averted my gaze

No longer love your heartbreak
No longer love this mistake

Its time to make new memories
instead of dwelling within these

Even though you told me it was real

No longer love the heartache
or the way you forsake
all the love I gave away
without return, without display

A molten mess,
     this flesh once made of steel.

Your name belongs to others
but they don't have the same taste
or the way I felt my heart drop
every time I saw your face

Still I hold no contempt
nor see it as a waste
We were just out of place
running at too quick a pace

All the secrets I still keep
vividly invade my dreams
like all the times I watched you sleep
opening your eyes to me

Wishing it was meant to be,
did you even see?

We didn't fool each other
we only fooled ourselves
the risks became a bother
but still they paid off well

The stories we could tell
of both our carried hells
The images we bore
hiding the sides we feared to tell

Its still worth all the hurt
to keep the memories
no one else in this universe
will share the same as these

So thanks again
everything ends
We would be caught too tightly
within the web we spin

So Thanks again
everything ends
even with the same conclusion
I'd do it lose or win.

Thanks again.

when you and i...
are apart, for a longer
length of time
i find....

i am a lop-sided,
mis-shapen thing.
stumbling along..
a straight and
narrow road.


simple things,
take more time
and difficult things,
are well... too...difficult.

it is not that,
i can't cope.
i do....
but life has,
become more
of a chore.
and less, of a game.

and it is the seperation.

i blame,
for the colours
becoming dull,
for the words
lacking purpose,
for the heart
beating  too slowly,
for the sun
losing it shine,
and food, it's taste.

and for me,
becoming a....
whinging, whining
waste of space!

lop-sidely,
stumble-grumbling,
along....

each strand of desire
woven in the air loom
into a gauzy nest
hidden in the air

there to tell you
how powerful
is each element unseen

each future, each word
each possibility, each touch

and all those desires
hints of which were conceived
long ago, tendrils opening
with powerful wills, stretching outward
along time

do these twine into your air space
or just see you from far away,
harmoniously twirling
in the wind

The sky is long
And the wind blows hard
Been living twenty six years
But still feel
Like I ain't even here

Blood in the trees
Buzzing of the bees
Whispering windows
Just birds take flight
Child holds a red balloon
Wishing it was a kite

Oh' lonesome love
Infinite sky above
Restless meaning
Ants around me teeming
She lay next to me
Purring and dreaming

Turn the record over
Listen to another side
Car is busted
People can't be trusted
Bike is lost
This heart of mine is rusted

I wake in the morning
And I sleep at night
This wedding ring of mine
Is starting to feel a little tight
Ice cream smile with a
Blueberry triumphant smile
I can't help it
If this is the way it is

Give me a dollar
And I'll double
Your take
No one seems to understand
There's nothing
At stake
Let me alone
Read my mind
Count the clock
Tell the time

Through the drapes
Pass the trees
And the sky
I caught her eyes
In a lie
When you know
You know
So I turned myself around

And I ride
For a mountain side
Desolate and awash in solitude
A caught cradle
Babies breath and sand
She always told me
I had the hardest hands

Rejection
Is motivations best and
Worst
Friend
A stinging nettle collides with a
Hissing kettle
And I'm stripped and searched
In the local airport
Cursing my desire to move
To prove
Is was never meant to love,
But to run

No fault of mine.
Genetics of germination
Permeate all around me
I've lost my way
My footing
My grip
Another misstep
And I'll be to weak
To catch myself

Broken mirrors
Show a thousand faces
Miles of caves
A million voices
Sky of diamonds
Bird made of leather
I'm too proud
To live forever

Why can't it just be true?
That thing you wanna' do.
Tell yourself you can
And you will, one day.
But don't be surprised
If what you get is not what
You expected
We all have to pay a price
For a slice of this fleeting life

I feel myself changing
Yes, everything's rearranging
I'm lost on an ocean front
My hearts on another stunt
And since we've been apart
I'm finding it hard
To come up
With a better start

When you got no road to drive on
And the snow gets too high to go through
When you've run outta' fuel
And the world's only been cruel
Make your way down to where I live
Near the apple trees and the forest groves
We can talk about your worries
We can speak about your woes
Make your way down to where I live
And we'll give it another try
We'll give it another give

To the whispering trees
I tell my darkest secrets
With my hungry sight

And they understand

And as I walk through
The sound of ticking clock
With my hands
In my pockets full of sand

I realize I give no love
To this world
And no love I get back

I just stare.

And I think...
Think...
Think.

Why's the sound so hollow?
Am I here?

And the clock stopped ticking
Trees weren't whispering anymore
Waves ate what was left
Of my wrinkled soul

Now I'm a flinching body
With a case of thoughts

Have you ever listened?

Lazy silence
Heavy breath of what's unsaid
Running through the foggy gardens

Ops...

So I swallowed my own hand
Reached for heart that wasn't mine
Snatched it out and bottled up
And just threw it to the ocean

No, I haven't. Have I?

Over the mountains
of the man’s  echoing story

i found the children
of the story huddled;
as commas blew like blizzards
on the crags of plot –
against  the  verbs of sky.

All i could do
was whisper.
“i do not understand you…”
but  still,  the words were beautiful
in the  reflection  of my  eyes
images i would carry like buckets
frozen in the vines of mind.