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Cat Oct 2014
I wonder often if I will ever get ahead
Not wonder how the next paycheck-
Will pay for the car loan, insurance, daycare.
And of course, the mortgage.
The Super moon hovers over me-
But I wish it would absorb some of these bills.
Cat Oct 2014
My crampons crunched into the snow, as the sky began to come alive with the sun rising over a crest behind me. The only lights near me are headlamps in a straight row, and the whiteness from the snow appearing more clearly. Six people mimic me, tied together by harnesses and a blue and green weaved climbing rope, a six to eight step difference. Relying on me to lead, guide, and set the pace, I stop to look behind me to see a row of white helmets glowing from their headlamps.  "Step. Crunch. Breath in. Step. Crunch. Breath Out. Step. Crunch. Breath in," I yell military style. They need me to talk through our breathing. 13,000' and my legs are moving slower, the crampons are feeling heavier with each step. My breathing feels like its being strangled by the rope attached to my back carabiner. I want to stop. Sit. Eat. Not move again. I wonder how I can check in with others behind, how I can lead, yell, talk if I feel light-headed, questioning my decisions to tip-toe on the edge of a crevasse that has just appeared, I think. I have lost track of how many hours have passed. The sun is my best friend reminding me of time, as it burns off the whisking clouds appearing at my head as my elevation increases. As I remember to look up, look ahead, I know we are close, highest I have ever been. I want to run, but I know I am moving in very slow motion. I slip off my crampons, thankfully being able to walk on stone, scree and scramble to the summit to kiss the sky at 14, 562'.
Cat Oct 2014
Most words blow through the breeze as I swing high on a swing

Every day Mojo seeps through a filter in my brain
Draining as processed

"Buzz" words in my every day profession
Glide on through like water moving over river rocks
No second thought

But when words stick
It's Intimate
Like two bodies on a warm summer night
Not letting go
The words smear
Against our chests
And could be wiped away
But chosen not to be.
Cat Oct 2014
What do you see in my eyes?

Clouds thunder on by
Leaving my mind
Thick- congested, muffled
         In thought.

I wait for the sky to lift
The heaviness off my mind
Yet my endless drifting of thoughts
And dreams are not lifting.

I have yet to hear
when someone looks into my eyes
humor, lightheartedness, playfulness
Instead it's intensity, mixture of deep thought, determination
And sometime concern.

I never share truly what's there.

For me, when I look into my eyes-
I describe it with color-
Green, blue, grays and red
Maybe someday I'll share.
Cat Aug 2014
I hear your voice again
And the world closes in.
Cat Aug 2014
I wonder often-
if I will ever get ahead
Not wonder how the next paycheck-
Will pay for the car loan, insurance, daycare.
And of course, the mortgage.
The Super moon hovers over me-
But I wish it would absorb some of these bills.
Cat Jul 2014
A long shot
To look into your eyes again
A hope
To hear your voice
A wince
Just respond to a text
Trying to catch my breath
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