I feel something when I'm with you
Something I haven't felt in a long time
I'm ready to let you in
I'm scared as hell
And my hands are shaking

But when I'm with you, it almost feels right
I know we've both been hurt before
And I know the feeling that you get when you are anxious
And the feeling that I get when I am scared
I don't want to be alone

You are not here and you are alone
I cried in your arms and you told me things you can't remember
You talk in your sleep to the demons of your past
I'll help you fight your demons if you keep me warm at night
I know we both don't want this
But it's happening and we're not in control

True love with a stranger has turned into something else
Spending my nights in the room that's too cold
The birds nest is on the shelf
As you slur your words
You say you're going to disappear
Please don't disappear.

It's not ok to mess with two hearts if you can't handle your own.

Why am I falling for you?
The man with the cold hands
And whiskey smile
We drink wine and watch movies
Fall asleep under the moon's dim light
I wake up in the morning
And you are holding me close
You cook me breakfast as we drink green tea
What are we going to do?
I'm scared and can't stop thinking
Believing every word you say
While you're still talking to your old love
But you look me in the eyes.

Drunk conversations
When the truth comes out
Our awkwardness and anxiety
Holding back tears
God I hate feeling alone
You tell me I'm pretty,
You like my eyes and teeth
That I am a rare find
I thought when we first kissed I'd never see you again
But here I am, at your house almost every night.

"How to not develop feelings..."
- A Memoir.

I already miss the way you look at me
And it's only been four days
This is what you want
To be alone:
Or to be with someone else
So I will not answer anymore of your texts
And I'll try to stop thinking about everything
About you;
And your whiskey smile
And how you hold my body close to yours
Your green eyes that look into my soul
Are we doing the right thing?
I feel like you're good for me
I'll give you space
I'll leave and give this thing some time
Because you said maybe one day
But I'll probably be thinking about someone else by then
And you will be alone thinking about me.