Just thinking about how
Here we are
Casually talking about the future
and how we're going to have fun
and I really hope that we do
and that I end up with you
and that no matter what I do
I'll always pick you

today i said
i couldn't let anyone else into my heart
because I gave it to you
and when destiny tore it to pieces
you were afraid to give it back

you smiled sadly
and learned closer
me catching a scent of you
a tear escaped from my eye
as you kissed me on the forehead

i felt my heart beating
again
maybe that's how you gave it back
but I felt its shards cut deep into my soul
and I knew

I wonder if you think of me
The way I'm thinking of you right now
Staring at pictures of you and me
Smiling
At the camera
Or at each other
The way your eyes would lock on mine
And tell me
Without ever saying anything
I love you

I wonder if you look back
On old forgotten messages on your phone
Or if you deleted them
Just right after
You deleted me
From your heart
You would've found the first time
I confessed and said
You're special to me
And you replied with
I love you

I wonder if you still remember
The sound of my voice
Because I still remember yours
And I hear it every night
As clearly as if
You were still right beside me
Holding me tight
On nights when I had trouble sleeping
Whispering in my ear
I love you
And only you

Only you
Meant
Only you were wrong
Because you didn't
Love
Only me

Only now
I wonder if you ever loved
Only me