Everything around me has become confusing
From feelings to family, everything has broken
Into a million tiny pieces, like specks of   dust
And I'm done dealing, so I sit here breathing them in

Now mind you, this is not something that you discuss around just anyone...
I am depressed. Not so bad that I have to take pills or see doctors.
But I can't shake this feeling that I'm not worth anything,
Or the one that tells me that all of this is just a lie.
Or even the one that tells me that people actually care about me...
That's why I'm depressed...

I
  Have
   This
    Sinking
      Feeling
        In the
         Pit of
           My
              Stomach...
        No  
          Idea
             Why.

A wave is breaking inside of me
Tired of living a life of negativity
How can I break these chains that haunt?
Everyday is a hollow dream

There must be a rainbow
That will break the clouds in this storm in my brain
That barricades my self esteem

My confidence is lacking
My fear's consuming
What must I do, to conquer these isolated ideas?

My heart began to pulse
I knew I had lost all control
Then I remembered my Grandma used to say
"When you feel that you have reached your end with shame
Read this from The Book of Knowledge and proclaim"

PSALM 91:14
Because he loves me," says
The Lord, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name."

I know that I will have faith to back me up
I smile, knowing not all is lost
This thought brings my mind to the center of all!!
My life is a true blessing
Our Father gave us His Son
Jesus has paid the cost

My fear is lost in a sea of hope
I truly realize no matter how hard
The ocean currents rise I will sustain

How many of you actually care?
I really want to know.