I swore I'd love you until my last breath
This weapon in my hand won't do a **** thing unless I let it
It can't hurt me or take my life
It's only a gun or a knife
Which to choose isn't a hard choice
For neither is mine, I'm gonna drink this bottle
Till there's nothing left
Till the pain of every memory fades away
No more cuts and no more buts
I'm not gonna say I can't cause you know I can
Waiting for the moment when -
Everything is gone
No more pain, no more emotion, no more anything
Nothing
A void consumes my soul
As I drink deep from this bottle and all others like it
Hoping to drown out my sorrows
I realize one thing
They're all beacuse of one person
One mistake -
You
I drink till the stars burn out Everything's gone and I fade into the blackness
Till I'm six feet underground
No more ache in my chest begging for more
Just me and the solid earth around me
No light but that before I died
Before I took my life with the bottle
My last words hardly audible
No one was around to hear "I love you"
I loved you with my last breath
Though I'm no longer here I love you

You silence my screams when I haunt your dreams.
You tie me down with weights, hoping that drowning will be my fate.

I thought you loved me.
You said you loved me.

You've done everything to beat me, buried me alive under our tree.
You've put me through hell, thrown me down a deep well.

Don't you see what you've done?
Can't you see who you've become?

Worse than Jekyll and Hyde, you've torn me from the inside.
Thoughts of suicide running through my head, you're making me wish I was dead.

Why?
I need someone with whom I can confide.

You make me want to die, when all I did was try.
After everything you've done to me,
I've had enough, we're history.

I can't keep it in any longer.
Now I can become stronger.

You silence my screams when I haunt your dreams.
I thought you loved me, you told me you loved me.

Worse than Jekyll and Hyde, you've torn me from the inside.
Why?

My life has always been a little bizarre
You'll never understand how complicated things really are
So I put on a mask and pretend I'm okay
Hopefully no one will notice again today
Everything that you see
It's a show, it's not the real me
Its never been easy
Life's got me queasy
Everyone likes to throw me down
But I try to stand my ground
I won't go down without a fight
One day I'm gonna take flight
Maybe one day you'll see that I'm not fine
It might be the day your life's on the line
I'm not fine
Wish I could hit rewind
I'm screaming out for help
Someone help me, I can't save myself
I dont want to do this anymore
I've cried so much my eyes are sore
I'm not fine
Wish I could hit rewind
I'm screaming out for help
Someone help me, I can't save myself

Is anything real anymore,
except all these ******?
I can't help but be skeptical,
it seems like everything is mythological.  

Does anyone know how to feel,
or am I an apple in an orange's peel?
All the talk of this and that,
but none of it is matter-of-fact.

Is this the truth I'm seeing now,
or have I been tricked again somehow?
It seems like we're a new race,
it's different to talk face to face.

What has technology done,
look at what we have become.
All we know are our phones,
it's time to create some new tones.

We need to change,
things shouldn't be this way.
Is anything real anymore,
except all these ******?

I cant help but be skeptical,
it seems everything is mythological.

We're on the verge of falling,
Teetering on the edge once again
I guess we love the feeling,
We love that adrenaline.

It seems that we are falling,
In and out of love
I wonder what will happen this time,
When push comes to shove.

Will we sink beneath the water,
Like love sometimes does?
Or will we stay afloat,
Drifting down the river as if we are a boat?

It seems that we are falling,
Teetering on the edge once again.
We seem to love the feeling, love the adrenaline,
But nothing is worth more than falling in love with you again.

I've been broken so long,
don't know what it's like to be whole.
I can't remember what its like to be in control.
Help me remember who I used to be.
Who I am now, just isnt me.
Am I too late to be saved,
Or will tomorrow be a brighter day?
I wish you could understand.
Who you see isn't who I am.
Please, don't let this get the best of me.
This is who I used to be, not who I want to be.
Clear the cloudiness from their eyes.
For now they seem hypnotized.
The person you think you see,
Is who I used to be.
Why do you refuse to see me for who I want to be?