my girl?
she is like lighting
deadly and quick

my girl?
she's beautiful
on the inside and the outside

my girl?
she has a big heart
if you had to draw it to scale
it would be the size of mars

my girl?
she laughs at everything
which makes me laugh at everything

my girl?
she is precious
like blood diamonds

my girl?
she is insecure
always critiquing herself
it breaks my heart

my girl?
she knows what she wants in life
and how she will get it
independent, to say the least
determined, would be the understatement of the century

my girl?
she keeps me happy
while i keep her happier

my girl?
she is far from perfect
but she is everything i could ever want

my girl?
she is asleep right now
i think i will send her a message
telling her why she makes my heart
act like a banshee in my ribcage

You spoke as if "no" would crush your soul in two.
My heart leaped out of my chest and the few minutes we walked together for the first time in what seemed like forever brought faith back into my hallowed heart.
I planned to tell you how i felt but bravery is not something im known for.  My god you looked beautiful. Eyes that hold everything you want to say in their carmel depths and a smile that could make the most heavy hearted person smile as if everyday was the most perfect story.

It's been a long road without two of the most important males out of my life.
  
     Timothy: The precious baby taken too soon. I imagine you learning to walk in heaven, growing in a way I will never see. My god my heart hurts thinking about your sugar plum face smiling up at me. I want to watch you grow and flurish my angel boy, my little homie as well.

      Fredrick: Grandpa , Sarcastic little **** , and one of the best people i've ever known. I cry thinking about all you will miss of your families future. We all know family was on of your most prized possesions. God i wish you could have been there to aprove of my first boyfriend or to see me graduate. I miss you so ******* much it's tearing me apart.

you talk and eyes roll back into infinity , girl bye

Im on the verge of losing it all, I feel sufficated and bound to hate everything going on around me until I cut myself free. In this moment i feel an overwhelming need to leave this Earth and all the bitter loneliness behind with my slave masters to blame. I need a rescue boat but no one sees me drowning. If I were to write my last letter tonight I would tell my parents that they shoved me over the edge clapping "IT'S ALL ABOUT THE GRADE." Not your mental health or how I feel when you nit pick my entire life front to back. If this continues there is no doubt I will be gone like a ship in the night.

I would love nothing more but to grab your face between my shaky palms and crash my lips against your own with the power of every heartbroken soul pushing against my mouth. The trouble with this is i do not know where your head or heart sits. If i were to place all of my lovely dreams onto your heavenly lips what would you do? The fear is all that holds me back from what could be a championship for all the heavy hearted or a low blow straight to the gut.