There is a young girl to the right of me. She is around seven. There is an older lady to the left. She is around 60. I am in between. I have already been the younger but I will soon become the older. But right now I am young and I am me. It was just a real eye opener I guess.
And each time I looked into his eyes I knew I was home because there was no way I could leave once I settled in. He held me with his arms, his body as warm as the sun that warms our earth, his heartbeat like a perfect pain killer to all my worries. I once thought could this get any better and then he kissed me and my soul ached for his whole being.
His hands caressed me like it was my first time, And I wish it had been because I know now that it should have felt like this and nothing else. He left marks on my skin, the good kind, and I absorbed all his love and his green eyes, the way they looked upon me like I was the only thing keeping him on the ground.
My heart will be nothing more than an exploding mechanism each time my eyes lift to meet yours My hands will be nothing more than cold palms like a winter ocean washing upon the shore My lips will be nothing more than the bridge between our minds but my thoughts will always hold on to you, for the rest of time.
Because your green eyes are all I see And when I close my eyes at night You're there with me I dream of breathing your air and singing your song Cause I've wanted you all this time, all along.
There will be a day that I finally forget about you There will be a day when its finally through And I will cry like I have nothing more to do Because that will be the day, *I'm free.
The only realization that I came to was the way I longed for your fingers to pass through my hair, so that I could feel your presence and us as a pair. The only realization I came to was that I was the only one that cared.
and i remember the day you told me you kept on reminding me and i knew it would happen all along i remember the times i smoked 3 cigarettes in a row to just forget to keep on trying to forget for the life of me because i am only 17, the prime of my life except its not prime and its not my life my life is controlled by you and when i eat and how i eat and what i feel whether i am fine or not fine whether i can even think or not think whether i am tired or energetic you constantly control my every move and i wanna know why you chose me why me disease, did i meet your qualifications?
tell me how you know all the secrets of the world and the small nuances of human race, i remember yesterday you had a sad look on your face because you knew how each one of us would end in a caged cell with nothing more to offer, in our own minds we would cower till we became the rats that people spit on where our existence as a whole would finally falter
The ocean, as endless as these words that fill my head The wind, whispers transgressions, I'm sure even when I'm dead Your face, I see in every dream My life without you is gone, its burst at the seam
Each day we walk We endlessly walk We don't communicate like we should I tug at your heart but its no good There's nothing anymore You don't adore You said this wouldn't happen but I knew it would One day you wouldn't love me like you used to You never could.