Benadryl and chill.
Anti hystamine dreaming.
Pre meditated drug dealing.

Over inflateted egos.
Boys with Legos
for brains.

Hussling at gas station.
Sending little paper parcels
to wide doe eyes.

Getting high is more fun, anyways.
Most days,
I'd rather play pretend.

mania a day dream panickness
sick I tremor wave at passing cars peopled
outside in the rain the wind and nothing matters
not the stares not the beeping horns screeching of the tires
as they swerve

am I more crazy then ever insane finally or
have I awakened to the
mornings hearing children cry
seen the rich say we are lazy
I have this desire
you see

to see hunger disappear truth become more
important than propaganda
homeless people be fed and warm
the only way in this society
I am poor myself
is to go crazy

I sacrifice myself
stand on the side of the highway crying
rush up to stopped cars
wanting to hug the people within
and they look scared
I maybe see why

i  don't care if I go crazy
anymore
this world is crazy
lie upon lie
makes for mad people

I sit now
at the intersection wanting
to entertain
dancing to the music
in my head

a tiny traversed vertical
noise a chatter
space a time thing
I go down to the cellar

cellular and wifi not here
to interfere
any more with
my deep seated rhythms

rhyme an ancient paradigm
with the oil burner by my side
the darkness mold and
mystery brewing

calm satisfied  cruel radar alone
in the cold dankness near I feel
a comfort bold almost
mystical

speak to me the altered states
the after day and nights became
a different dream
the awesomeness of letting loose

in a cellar a long lost muse
spoke and sung danced and
used my spirit my obtuseness
obvious

my sway to her tune my
feebleness all caught between
her haunting voice her croon
away I went to

dark alone but for her doom
an island there
in the middle of nowhere

Dear Mommy ,

I'm with a sweet guy now mama
he buys me things
takes me out to eat and makes me laugh

but sometimes he yells at me then says sorry
he's verbally abusive but he says he loves me
sometimes he makes fun of my insecurities but then says he's joking

but I love him mama
I don't know what to do

I learned this all from you mama

remember when you use to mentally abuse me then buy me things
remember when you use to make fun of me and said you were just kidding
remember when you use to hit me then said you loved me

I dont know what love is mama
all I know is what you taught me

I give him chances because even though he hurts me
he still loves me
just like you mama you hurt me but I know you love me

right?

Shadow of life
Always has your back.
Loves your reflection of character in the sun.
It accepts your flaws and splendors.
It wishes it can remember your actions.
It can't cause it has no brain.
Only you can remember what you've done.
It's underneath your control
It feels lonely without some light in your life.
It knows a new day will be around.
It's seen in every direction like a Queen.
It's on a chessboard wondering where you want to go.
It wishes it can touch you.
It wishes it can make you king.
It wishes it can help you with your ambitions
It can't cause it knows it takes time.
It understands confidence.
I loves to walk with you.
It loves to run with you.
It follows you when your in love.
It wishes it can wipe your tears
It can't, but it acknowledges your pain.
It loves to be hugged.
It loves when you hug your soulmate.
It questions if he, or she is the right one.
It loves when you drink coffee.
It wants to feel energized and alive.
It watches when you drink alcohol.
It dislikes you when you pass out.
It loves when you stay hydrated.
It knows, i't wont help it's shadowy skin.
It wishes it can take care of you when you're sick.
It can't but it knows you are the doctor at heart.
It knows when you become young and old.
It knows, it will vanish when you're dead.
It wishes to see you in heaven someday.
It wishes it can hug you when your in solitude.
It can't comfort you, but knows you need someone.
It Comprehends your exertion.
It wishes it can move again, cause it's your friend.
It wishes it can talk, and meet your new friends and shadows.
It can't but it's comfortable with who you have in your life.
It wishes you can give it a name.
It knows you can keep the same same, or change it.
It misses you when you are sleeping.
It wishes it can get rid of the monster under the bed.
It can't get rid of the monster, but it knows you grow.
It wishes it can fight for you.
It can't fight your battles, but it will cheer for you.
It wishes it can take care of you.
When you can't take care of yourself.
It doesn't want you to be afraid.
Cause then you are afraid of yourself.
It loves you for who you are, so don't run.

If a djinn could grant
My only three wishes
Your soul I'd enchant
With limitless riches

With boundless visions
Of dancing witches cast-
Ing, fire from spliffs, this
Grass smokes so delicious

Smoke's so capricious
Swirling in wind like thoughts
Gone in an instant
Winds lost to our vision

Make your decision.
Signed in blood, your silver
Lined medallion
Mark of the magician.

Reconciliation
Ravens speak with dogs teeth
Cleansing breathe of fire
Bless my intuition.