all my life
i've been preparing faces
to meet the faces that
i've met

friends
family
the man who delivers newspapers
at our doorstep each morning

i've laughed at their silly jokes
as they tossed their heads from side to side
in naive stupidity and their sheer ignorance
a pompous lot, the human race i tell you

i've acknowledged their staunch morals
and tried to make them my own
as they scorned at the girl in a skimpy dress
and chewed on mutton bones gluttonously

all my life, i've been trying hard
to blend in
with people who've shown me
that i don't belong with them

and tonight when i shed gallons of tears
i have only my bed and pillow to share
i've learnt that my sadness
is my very own

I will stay awake
and I will let my eyes burn.
It is better to feel the pain again
than to continue feeling nothing at all.

come wild one
come Willow
come west
It is time to leave your rest
rise
awake
the truth inside your chest
has blossomed

Within my presence
I feel a great void is to be filled
And I stare into the empty light
And I blink to the eruption of my heart
And in this moment, I present myself
With two options:
Fulfill my written life
Or break under the weight of the pen.