Ashleigh Foster: Poems

Ashleigh Foster Jan 2016

There is a girl who sits in f
ront of the class, she is tall, bright
and smart, her name is Paris Jackson.

She is so helpful and kind to
others around her.
She told me her favriout singer
who is Marilyn Manson.

how can the smartest and helpful girl
learn to hate her own guts
she cuts and burns her skin.
how can she feel so insecure to others.

she gets a blade and sraw pictures on her arms.
She thinks that her parents dosen't care for her
it is as if her mind isn't dark enough.

There is a girl in the front of the class
who only laugh when someone tells her
who's on on first base. Her eyes looks like they are
made out of glass.

How can someone so perfect feel so insecured,
as her arms has cuts and burns.
Drawing pictures on her arms with a blade as
if her mind isnt darekk enough.

There was a girl in font of the class
who took her life yesterday, she left a
note saying "sorry I didnt say, my
mind was messed up, you couldnt
save me any way."

I felt sad and so dose the girl in the back of the class.

Enjoy

**Fight Poem**

Ashleigh Foster Jan 2016

**Fight Poem**

I'm on a small boat
on a massive oceaN
where the waves are crasing
against the boat, as i was a small bird
trying to find love, but I don't only
have match, but I have loads of matches.*

I am someone who exposed themselves
and what I did I shouldnt of done.

My brain feels like a wreacking ball, but
tonight I am going to lose myself and scream
as loud as I want because this is my fight, where
I am going to take back my life that you once ruined
for me.

I am going to prove to you that I do care about my life.
You see how i am hurt and weak,
so I am gonna be stronger than you and fight.

*No one belives me about how much you have
been hurting me, I lost all of my friends who dosent
want to talk to me anymore and alot of people are
afraid of meand you say that I am into you.
It been years since I saw my Family and my last
words were I will miss them because you
killed me a night before our wedding.

*I hope you all will like the poem and the line It been years since I saw my Family is true because I am in foster care and I am quiet happy and sad*

#sad #death #family

Her last words

Ashleigh Foster Jan 2016

Her last words

There is a girl who is always happy
as she was cheerful with her friends
but thiswas for a short while and now
that she is older, she feels all alone in
her new school.

She told her parents that she was down,
but the just ignored her, so she didn't tell
anyone about how she felt.

When people asks her what is the matter
she would reply that she was fine, but she
isn't you can tell by looking at her eyes.

She cant stop herself from crying every night
but she know that she wont be ok, in the summer
she wears long sleeves to cover up all of the scares.

She was sad, didn't think that she fitted inwith the other
students. She didn't tell her parents that no one liked her,
she never speacks to the kids in her school but if the kids see
the cuts she would blame her cat.

The truth behind the cuts is it wasn't a cat because she dosen't own
a cat, those cuts on her wrists were no mistakes cause all of the people
couldnt be bothered to save her from this self hate.

She is feeling down, never up and now she is stuck in a stupid rut.
she knows that nobody will care if she dies, she was prepaering to stand
on the chair and put the rope around her neack.

Her hands are shakeing while she writes a letter to her
parents saying "Look at me now, are you proud of your precious child"
but it isnt her parents fault, it is the worlds fault.

She stood on the chair, she looked at the moon as
ahe knew it all will be over soon. The chair feel down and she took her final breath.

enjoy had the suicdal thought as well but i am over it if you need to talk come to me and i will support you.

#sad #suicidal

Human

Ashleigh Foster Jan 2016

Human

I remember when we was young
I could hold my breath, I could
bite my tounge, I could always
stay up for days when you wanted.

I was your number one, I faked
my smiles, I faked my laughs
I did what you asked, I gave you
everything that I had.

I could do it but now I cant because
I am scared of you, don't you know
that I am a human, I also bleed when
I cut myself.

I'm just a stupid human that fell to your
knees, dont you know I have feelings as well.
I can't beleive that you put words and lies in my
head.

Don't you know I can have my ups and downs
I'm just a silly little human. I remember when
I turned you on, I was your slave because I
didn't know what was right or wrong. I could
hold the words of your lies like they were
the truth, I was your one and only girl.

I could do it but I cant because I was in love
with you but you ruind my life.
could do it but now I cant because
I am scared of you, don't you know
that I am a human, I also bleed when
I cut myself.

I'm just a stupid human that fell to your
knees, dont you know I have feelings as well.
I can't beleive that you put words and lies in my
head.

Don't you know I can have my ups and downs
I'm just a silly little human. Now I can change
so much as I can leave you now because you
stabed me where my heart is breacking,
now I can leave you and be in a place where I
can call mine.

A song inspired me to write this poem. the song is called human but the nightcore version.

#love #sad #pain #death #poems

Monster

Ashleigh Foster Jan 2016

Monster

I need a doctor
Someone call a doctor
There is someting wrong with me
I have a **** monster as a boyfriend
Why do I want him
someone please tell me

I'm in love with a monster
He is so **** that I can't get my
Mind of him.
I dont care if he is a monster
I still love him if he is a monster

Why do people have to talk about him
Why do they hate him
I love him so dearly
Why do they have to be so mean

I need a doctor
Someone call a doctor
There is someting wrong with me
I have a monster as a boyfriend
Why do I want him
someone please tell me

I'm in love with a monster
He is so **** that I can't get my
Mind of him.
I dont care if he is a monster
I still love him if he is a monster

Enjoy

#dark

Some one that i know

Ashleigh Foster Jan 2016

Some one that i know

There is someone that I know who is awesome and they are always there for me even when I am down and no matter how I feel they always make me laugh.
There is someone who I know because they care for me as I care for them. That person is really close to me and they loves me as much as I love them and they would even lose their life for me.
There is a person that I know he would actually want me to run away with him and live with him until we die.
He actually want me to be his love of his life and we are best friends forever how funny is that.
He doesn't live far from me and I don't want my mother to find out but I don't care.
She will find out in a few months because I am pregnant with his child and I will be leaving soon so she doesn't hit me because I am only 16 how annoying is that so I will run away with him for the rest of our life

not a true poetry

Star light

Ashleigh Foster Jan 2016

Star light

The starlight is my guidance
If I get lost at night, I will look
Up at the sky and find my way.

I love thee starlight, I always
Know that God is right there
For the people who prays to
Him.

The starlight is my guidance
To where I go and it is the
One who found the love of
My life.

The starlight is my guidance
If I get lost at night, I will look
Up at the sky and find my way.

won poetry contest at school with this poem

Stiches

Ashleigh Foster Feb 2016

Stiches

I can't beleive how badly I am hurt
I cant belive how sore my wonds are.
  Why did you have to stab me so deep?
  I need someone to heal these cuts.

I'm going under the water
  but I know that I can swim my way
  out of the water.
  Your not my lover any more if
  your killing me.

You watched me bleed until I passed out,
  you put me on my knees
  when I was passed out
  you left me all alone so I will be
needing stiches cause i wont be able to get
  any of your kisses.
  You tripped over me as you walked away so now I
  will be needing stiches

I was the moth that was drawn to your flame
You brought me in and I couldnt feel any pain,
  your heart is to cold to love.
  I am left seeing my blood on my own.

I'm going under the water
  but I know that I can swim my way
out of the water.
  Your not my lover any more if
  your killing me.

You watched me bleed until I passed out,
  you put me on my knees
when I was passed out
  you left me all alone so I will be
needing stiches cause i wont be able to get
  any of your kisses.
You tripped over me as you walked away so now I
  will be needing stiches

Needle and the thread
  Gotta get you out of my head
Needle and the thread
  Gonna wind up dead

Needle and the thread
  Gotta get you out of my head
Needle and the thread
  Gonna wind up dead

Needle and the thread
  Gotta get you out of my head
Needle and the thread
  Gonna wind up dead

Needle and the thread
  Gotta get you out of my head get you out of my head

You watched me bleed until I passed out,
you put me on my knees
  when I was passed out
  you left me all alone so I will be
needing stiches cause i wont be able to get
  any of your kisses.
You tripped over me as you walked away so now I
  will be needing stiches

I took some of the lyrics from the song stiches by Shawne Mendes

Stop Bullying

Ashleigh Foster Feb 2016

Stop Bullying

Why do people hurt
Other people’s feelings
Why call them names
Why laugh at them
Why punch them, why
Kick them, why slap them
In the face, why hurt them
Every day.

It doesn’t matter if you are
A boy or a girl, it doesn’t
Matter if you are big or small
It doesn’t matter if you hate that.
Person, all you do is bully people.
Of their religious or backgrounds.

SO STOP BULLYING

I think that bullying must stop at once because people are killing themselves of it as well

The demond that i love

Ashleigh Foster Jan 2016

The demond that i love

There's a demon that I love,
I cant stop thinking about him
I only see him once a month
He says he is busy with
Work, but demons do lie
But I believe him anyway.
There's a demon that I love,
He hasn't told me his name
He said he wants to be with
me for an eternal life.
There's a demon that I love,
No thinks he exists, my
friends laughs at me, I
Hate it.
There's a demon that I love,
I tell him all of my problems
His Response was to ****
Myself, I asked him to take
My soul but he said no.
There's a demon that I love,
I killed my self for him.

— The End —